Suicide

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    Jan 27, 2009 12:11 AM GMT
    Has anyone ever thought of, planned to, or attempted to commit suicide before?
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    Jan 27, 2009 12:14 AM GMT
    yes, years ago, long before I grew up and realised it would get me no where.. that my problems where insignificant in the face of a greater life and that i need to let go of my hate and anger towards those who seek to harm me....

    I was 14 at the time... so... meh, I've moved on now and would never consider doing it again.....
  • metalxracr

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    Jan 27, 2009 12:18 AM GMT
    Um.. I don't think it's the right thing to do no matter the situation, but I have kind of experienced it in a way... slightly.

    I used to suffer from severe anxiety and panic attacks, and they made me feel so weird and just drained and depressed. A side effect of anxiety is strange morbid thoughts. I HATED it!

    It's kind of hard to explain but I would get images of committing suicide and ways I could do it with what I had in my surroundings, but consciously I would never do it! Like, I didn't actually want to kill myself I just had a lot of thoughts of doing it... and it scared the s#*t out of me. Fortunately I was able to change my habits and rid myself of anxiety.
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    Jan 27, 2009 12:23 AM GMT
    suicide isn't about doing whats right or wrong, its about ending the pain that your feeling inside... trust me, when your at the ledge and your head is still telling you to jump and it'll be all over, you aint thinking about other people or what is right or wrong, your only wanting it to stop...
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    Jan 27, 2009 12:47 AM GMT
    cjcscuba1984:

    While I'm not qualified to talk about suicide or counsel peple thinking of committing suicide, there are people out there that can help. Are you thinking of suicide?
  • DCEric

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    Jan 27, 2009 12:49 AM GMT
    No.
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    Jan 27, 2009 12:55 AM GMT
    Blatant honesty ahead.....icon_eek.gif


    Ya know its funny, your whole life... well my whole life... I heard suicide and my reaction was 'never ever' and 'thats pathetic.'

    But sometimes life throws you a big fat curve ball... something you never expected. Then maybe you would do things you never thought you would.

    But you just gotta dig deep. Realize there's friends, family, and a million other things to look forward to. The Sun comes up the next morning if you had a shitty day or a great day and its another chance to turn things around.

    So in short.... my answer is yes, I've thought about it.
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    Jan 27, 2009 12:56 AM GMT
    rigsby saidcjcscuba1984:

    While I'm not qualified to talk about suicide or counsel peple thinking of committing suicide, there are people out there that can help. Are you thinking of suicide?


    No No. Thanks for the concern though icon_smile.gif. I have in the past though. "Prayers for Bobby" brought up a lot of bad memories for me... which is why I wanted to know how many guys have thought of suicide.
  • Timbales

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    Jan 27, 2009 12:56 AM GMT
    lilTanker said... realised it would get me no where..


    it's that the point?
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    Jan 27, 2009 12:58 AM GMT
    Timberoo said
    lilTanker said... realised it would get me no where..


    it's that the point?
    for me, it was a significant point..
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    Jan 27, 2009 1:00 AM GMT
    I've lost several friends and acquaintances over the years to suicide. It is absolutely awful.
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    Jan 27, 2009 1:01 AM GMT
    Yes
    My parents had a very messy divorce, I was struggling with being gay, and gaining a lot of weight because of my deep depression. My grades and attendence at school became shit and nearly anything could make me cry. I ended up trying to run away, my aunt and cousins talked me out of it (I hadn't gone very far), when I returned home my dad and I got in a big argument. As he was yelling at me I was trying to slash my wrists with a razor under my covers, I wasn't doing it right though and just made some shallow cuts. I decided that day to give life a chance and promised God I would do my best and that one day I'd fall in love with the most wonderful guy and look back on the day I tried to kill myself and always be happy I didn't. It's given my a fortitude that's unimaginable.
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    Jan 27, 2009 1:11 AM GMT
    Yes, when my I was 18. My stepdad murdered my mom and then himself...and then my dad and my stepmom announced there divorce. The former was two weeks before I graduated and the latter two weeks after I graduated. ---And then again when I was 23 years old, I was on my own, seriously depressed still and it was near overwhelming.

    I would have succeeded had I not come to my senses, pulled up some strength, and walked across a 15-acre lot to a friend's house so they can rush me to the ER and get my loverly wrists stitched up. Now I have a nice reminder of what an idiot I was at the time.

    But as the same friend told me, it wasn't a mistake what I did. There are no mistakes in life. Only lessons. And it's whether we choose to learn from those lessons that's important. And I learned I wasn't ready to leave yet...even when I recently learned about things that have happened to me that I don't wish to discuss in an open forum.
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    Jan 27, 2009 1:16 AM GMT
    Jesus fuck. And I thought I was having a bad day.

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    Jan 27, 2009 1:24 AM GMT
    I once had several conversations about suicide with a friend in grad school. Exactly how the subject came up, I have no recollection, but it was over many pitchers of beer. We agreed (I thought) that if the current life path became untenable, it would simply be a good opportunity to hit the road and start a new life somewhere else, from scratch.

    Shortly after I graduated and left town, he killed himself. From the way he did it, it was clear that he planned it out weeks or months in advance. Since then, I'm very concerned when someone brings up that subject "as a hypothetical question."

    So, I realize that it's a current topic, because of the movie this week. And it's possible that I'm just unusually dense at picking up signs. But I tend to think that any time the subject comes up, one of those "qualified people," ought to get in on the conversation.
  • somedaytoo

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    Jan 27, 2009 1:26 AM GMT
    Never considered it. Life's too much fun! Great movie though. I really identified with it as I come from an extreamly religious family too.
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    Jan 27, 2009 1:28 AM GMT
    Never had a reason to, and never will have a reason to.
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    Jan 27, 2009 1:59 AM GMT
    Suicide is a drag.
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    Jan 27, 2009 2:06 AM GMT
    In short without putting my life story out there, yes. My question is why do you ask?
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    Jan 27, 2009 2:07 AM GMT
    In all seriousness, nearly everyone has thought about it, at some time, or another.

    If anyone here is contemplating suicide, you need to seek professional mental health help NOW.
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    Jan 27, 2009 2:55 AM GMT
    Here is another thread on the same topic ..

    Suicide?

    and a few more
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  • upsguy68

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    Jan 27, 2009 3:05 AM GMT
    Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem! It always helps to talk to someone about your problems, whether it be a friend or a professional. And then there are always MEDS!! Luckily for me, talking to friends and medications worked wonders! Both got me through some very rough years. Now all I need is the company of my friends and I don't really even need that all the time! I'm much happier with myself, nowadays.icon_biggrin.gif
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    Jan 27, 2009 3:17 AM GMT
    I can honestly say, except for the fleeting, mostly joking thoughts when I've found myself in the deepest pits of some seriously fucked up quagmires I've gotten into over the past 24 years of my life, I've never even considered suicide. Sure, I may have been facing university expulsion, a lawsuit, and almost getting kicked out of my parents' home, but you know, I managed to muddle on through. It's never been a concern for me.

    I have dealt with it on behalf of friends before though, including entering the bathroom right after my friend slit his wrists and literally clamping his wrists closed. It sucks.
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    Jan 27, 2009 3:18 AM GMT
    yes, i've thought about it far, far too many times for far too many years. but what i keep coming back to is this: what would my mother say?

    honestly, my mom has saved my life more times than she'll ever know.

    i've not had these thoughts for a couple of years. i disagree with the notion that MEDS will always help: the medicine that was supposed to improve my moods caused me to have more suicidal tendencies. i strongly suggest you avoid serzone. another one i was on can induce diabetes.

    what has finally helped me is that i have been single as an independent adult for going on 2.5 years, and in that time i've finally taken enough time to myself to know that if i succeed or fail it's because of me, not some crazy shithouse loon affecting me (i.e. dad, boyfriends, professors, etc). i think that in creating a life for myself completely on my own, and defining myself by my own preferences, i have been able to grow past the need to feel worthless.
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    Jan 27, 2009 3:23 AM GMT
    cjcscuba1984 saidHas anyone ever thought of, planned to, or attempted to commit suicide before?


    I could've sworn that we discussed this before. If I recall correctly, you ended up very mad at me...icon_cry.gif

    Anyways, Yes, I attempted it a couple times - the last time being when I was 11 years old. I would've been successful had my cousin not walked in on me. I've dealt with the issues I had then, and am grateful that he walked in on me. I would've been missing out. Times get hard - really hard - but the good times are worth sticking around for.