Jul 08, 2015 12:14 AM GMT
*huge sigh* This relationship is over finally I think. It fucking sucks. Just when I finally got over my long existing depression.... I have this to be depressed about now. Granted it wasn't the best relationship in the world, I still loved him. The worst part is how it ended. It's been slowly heading towards the end for the past year now and in the past few months I have caught him in so many lies that I can't even recall them all. He gives me rides to and from work everyday since he works right across the street from me. So after work today I walked across the street to wait for a ride home.... and hes on his break eating with a gay guy that I work with... and he would never do something like this with someone unless he had been talking with this for a long while. He thought I wasn't off for another hour... so this was really awkward walking into this. Especially since the guy I work with doesn't know that I'm gay or in a relationship with him (so no hard feelings on my coworker). I didn't even know what to say. Needless to say, things are over and I'm trying to distract my mind by cleaning, but that only goes so far. Now I'm just venting online since I have no one I can talk to about how depressed I am now. We live together too, so it's only a matter of time before he is home. Fucccccckkkk.