Jul 27, 2015 3:25 PM GMT
I am really intrigued by this freakish muscle escort who goes by the name Big Muscle Eddie. He has videos all over the net. He is a gross caricature of masculinity and I don't find him sexy but I can't look away. Its like everything the most base aspects of my mind thinks a man should be, amplified to unsustainable proportions and thrown back in my face, daring me to question my own desires. Part of me would love to pay his $300 hour rate. Just to see him in person. Part of me knows I would probably spend the whole time staring horrified at his distorted dick and wrinkling my nose at how much he smelled. I'd be fascinated about how big he is, what muscles are real and which are synthnol. Basically I wouldn't be seeing him as a human being. Part of me wonders if many guys with bigorexia secretly want to look like this. On some level most of us want to be objectified. I don't see anything wrong with that from the human perspective. I guess this is a logical extreme of that.