4am I was getting my usual early morning 22 oz drink of water when my thoughts got stressful (I've got to make a pass at a man I met this weekend. He gave me his card. I looked him up on Linkedin. He's a good soul) and other worries...
Yasssssssssssssssssss I needed to hear this right now after all the stuff I'm going through as a young person dealing with life in general. This song is giving me strength right now because I know God isn't threw with me just yet.
Things are going really well in my life at this time, thanks to Jesus. But this chorus pierces my soul, just thinking of where He brought me from, where He is taking me and all inbetween. May Glory be all to Him, Jesus Christ!!
My circumstances (crying) but I can get by not complaining: All things are working.
My Sun Sign's Planet, Venus is retrograde. It is expected that I would re-think aspects of my life. I'm okay -- sort of: the worries are still there.
Today was Mars day - the day for men. So, I was a little soldier today, honoring Mars.
So to start a male acquaintance with hopes of affection, Tuesday is a good day to initiate the relationship.
So, what happened? Seemingly nothing.
I was going to call him at lunch time but I left my cell phone in my cup holder with the lid closed in my Prius.
Okay, I'll call him from the garage, but my phone needed to be charged.
Okay, I'll call him when I get home. His cell phone was filled with messages and couldn't take anymore messages.
It was a good drill.
It's really a tough market: red state, Methodists, Latter Day Saints, Baptists, suburbs; and living under a Saturn influence where I'm not supposed to have fun anyway, just being my own version of the biblical book of Job.
I cry because I used to live under a Venus ON THE MIDHEAVEN influence. The difference between the beauty, self-actualization, etc. of that WITH Pluto providing passion vs. Saturn on the Descendant is tragic if I weren't blessed to seek wisdom when I felt: really, your Venus cup has been filled for quite some time. Go fulfill some family obligations. Be like the lead in the movie Jumper. Live another reality. GAWD, Solar System Level of God, you are real. Everything Euripides said in The Bacchae about gods is true.
But I cry because it's been more than six years without me being able to go back home, my personality, my Sun-sign home.
If you leave Saturn, aging optimized, how do you expect to serve your older brother, his wife, his children, my cousin. You have a place among relatives. Age on your family tree, not alone (no relatives) in a city, off your family tree.
Crying, if not for the nobility of Christianity and Saturn, the old man.
Stephen, you're the old soul. Carry this pain in your soul. Carry this missing of an Earthly home. Bear it. All Things Are Working. All Things Are Working for Them Who Love the Lord (personification of Salvation Jesus. Jesus. Jesus.)
Venus, the planet of love, beauty and creativity is about to take a well needed rest after touring the skies with both Mars and Jupiter.
Venus will move into retrograde on July 25, 2015 and during this time she will be stopping any new developments in order to review and reassess the past.
Sweet Venus will be pulling up the weeds in her rose garden and pruning the thorns to ensure that all true, unconditional love can survive in all of our lives. Because she is going to be retrograding in the sign of Leo, fantasies, dramas, and ego are all likely to come crashing down in order to be sifted through and released.
Venus retrogrades approximately every 18 months, so while this cycle is not super rare there are some interesting planetary interplays that are going to really push love and relationships to the front and center.
This doesn’t necessarily just mean romantic love and relationships, in fact at a core level Venus retrograde is really going to be shining a light on our shadow selves and exposing where we have failed to love and nurture our own bodies, minds and souls.
If you are in a relationship it is likely that both parties will start to feel this on some level and perhaps some lingering thoughts, feelings and emotions surrounding the relationship will also be stirred.
This is an excellent time to get things out into the open, to discuss your deepest thoughts and feelings and to express your love and support for each other. However, Venus retrograde is not a good time to forge new commitments or start dating.
Remember, Venus is not supporting anything new, rather she is taking this period to work through making what is already present better and healthier.
If your relationship has been sour for some time and you have been feeling like it is time to move on, Venus may give you the push you have been looking for as she moves retrograde.
Often relationships that are no longer serving your higher purpose will be snipped from Venus’ garden in order to welcome in the new once she moves out of retrograde.
Venus will go direct on September 6, 2015 around the same time as Saturn will move into Sagittarius.
For those of you who have been following Saturn, he has also been travelling retrograde in the sign of Scorpio and will continue to do so until August 1st. Saturn has been forcing us all to dig deep, especially in our relationships and in ourselves in order to uncover our deepest truth.
Because these masculine (Saturn) and feminine (Venus) planets are both re-visiting the past, chances are things may feel quite heavy until September.