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    Jan 30, 2009 10:07 PM GMT
    Ever wondered why? why do we do it? why do we constantly fight, fight for everything? fight to be accepted, to be our selfs, to be treated fairly, to be able to scream, to live, to love, to hate, why we fight everyone, why we fight our selfs, why we can hate so easily, can love so quickly and take so much, can give nothing at all, can be so cold to someone and so warm to another person..

    Have you ever stopped and had a think about why we are doing these things? why we seem to all fight for the same thing and yet still go it alone, never helping each other, never taking someones hand and helping them up that rung too, why we can't just find it in our selfs to just be, that we have to compete and fight and hurt..

    I can't for the life of me work out why we do it, why I do it, why can't I look past the things I know are worthless and just see and love and help, why can I not give of my self sometimes as selflessly as those around me have given to me, why can we all not, what is it that stops me, stops us, from doing it...

    When will we lay it all aside and just see each other for all that we are, for the beauty we contain, for the love we can give, for the joy we can bring??

    will it ever happen? will we find love for our selfs, for each other? will we grow before its to late, before the damage is done and it can not be repaired? will we survive our own external selfish and childish nature, will we survive and still have the beauty and love and joy we contain now or will we have lost it all to our selfs and our struggle to be??
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    Jan 30, 2009 10:09 PM GMT

    Pattison, we want lilTanker back!
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    Jan 30, 2009 10:11 PM GMT
    bla bla bla get on ya knees and service me betch!!
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    Jan 30, 2009 10:12 PM GMT

    Oh sure, pleasure! icon_idea.gificon_idea.gificon_idea.gif //lights off or on?
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    Jan 30, 2009 11:18 PM GMT
    It's ok, Lil is just having a blockage..
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    Jan 30, 2009 11:46 PM GMT
    lilTanker said,


    "fight to be accepted, to be our selfs, to be treated fairy.."


    someone needs to be fcuked into unconciousness..
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    Jan 30, 2009 11:56 PM GMT
    damn i cant find my celphone
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    Jan 31, 2009 12:35 AM GMT
    meninlove said lilTanker said,


    "fight to be accepted, to be our selfs, to be treated fairy.."


    someone needs to be fcuked into unconciousness..

    hahaha damn I didn't spot that one hahaha
    and yes I do... I really really do!
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    Jan 31, 2009 12:37 AM GMT



    ...will send men, have packaged them in large fridge sized box w/airholes.

    address?
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    Jan 31, 2009 12:42 AM GMT
    YAY send'em to ma bedroom please, but have them check the kitchen first.. I could be in there cooking..
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    Jan 31, 2009 12:46 AM GMT


    they come packed in a light long-lasting lube in a case of six. Accessories, equipment are in the box at the bottom of the crate. Completely re-usable.
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    Jan 31, 2009 12:47 AM GMT
    *tents fingers* Excellent... bwahahahah they'll be spent before the weekend is over!
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    Jan 31, 2009 1:31 AM GMT
    Some assembly required

    batteries not included
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    Jan 31, 2009 5:49 AM GMT
    Time for a drink.
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    Jan 31, 2009 5:52 AM GMT
    oh I so agree, I need my vodka, sugar free red bull and a lime.. ah stuff it, I'll just have the vodka and lime.. why dilute the alcohol!
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    Jan 31, 2009 5:57 AM GMT
    lilTanker saidEver wondered why? why do we do it? why do we constantly fight, fight for everything? fight to be accepted, to be our selfs, to be treated fairly, to be able to scream, to live, to love, to hate, why we fight everyone, why we fight our selfs, why we can hate so easily, can love so quickly and take so much, can give nothing at all, can be so cold to someone and so warm to another person..

    Have you ever stopped and had a think about why we are doing these things? why we seem to all fight for the same thing and yet still go it alone, never helping each other, never taking someones hand and helping them up that rung too, why we can't just find it in our selfs to just be, that we have to compete and fight and hurt..

    I can't for the life of me work out why we do it, why I do it, why can't I look past the things I know are worthless and just see and love and help, why can I not give of my self sometimes as selflessly as those around me have given to me, why can we all not, what is it that stops me, stops us, from doing it...

    When will we lay it all aside and just see each other for all that we are, for the beauty we contain, for the love we can give, for the joy we can bring??

    will it ever happen? will we find love for our selfs, for each other? will we grow before its to late, before the damage is done and it can not be repaired? will we survive our own external selfish and childish nature, will we survive and still have the beauty and love and joy we contain now or will we have lost it all to our selfs and our struggle to be??


    I think we have an incipient Buddhist on our hands. I've wondered these things often.

    I once almost died, and had to spend three weeks in a hospital. During the event itself, I felt so alone and isolated... and a day afterward in the ICU I had this flash of overwhelming yearning to reach out and express love to everyone. At the time, my relationship with my mom was particularly rocky, and while we've patched things up, I certainly haven't expressed as much love and compassion as I felt in the ICU. Life just gets in the way, which is really awful.
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    Jan 31, 2009 6:06 AM GMT
    MetaPrayer Time!

    May I be free from Fear
    May I be free from Suffering
    May I be Happy
    May I be filled with Loving Kindness

    May You be free from Fear
    May You be free from Suffering
    May You be Happy
    May You be filled with Loving Kindness

    May We all be free from Fear
    May We all be free from Suffering
    May We all be Happy
    May We all be filled with Loving Kindness





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    Jan 31, 2009 6:12 AM GMT
    your quite right Satyricon, after big life changing events and my own promise to attempt change, I've let life get in the way of my own self... I keep thinking to my self I'm doing so much already, but its just not feeling enough or maybe not in the right places...
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    Jan 31, 2009 6:13 AM GMT
    GuerrillaSodomite saidMetaPrayer Time!

    May I be free from Fear
    May I be free from Suffering
    May I be Happy
    May I be filled with Loving Kindness

    May You be free from Fear
    May You be free from Suffering
    May You be Happy
    May You be filled with Loving Kindness

    May We all be free from Fear
    May We all be free from Suffering
    May We all be Happy
    May We all be filled with Loving Kindness

    Thats going on my fridge!!
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    Jan 31, 2009 6:21 AM GMT
    come on you guy tanker does have a point after all. He's right. If we ever fight, it's always because we want to protect something. A thought, an idea, or maybe a lifestyle. The only thing that everyone wants is to be accepted; to be who ever we want without anyone putting us down. If you look at it really close, you'll see that all the fighting, and the pain is because we're all selfish.

    What I mean is, we're all born selfish when you think about it. We want food. We want shelter. In the beginning, all we know how to do is want. Only as we grow do we learn what true kindness is. Kindness is something that has to me learned. Selfishness is the only thing that's guaranteed among everyone in the world, but that's not a bad thing.

    I sometimes feel that the fighting, and pain comes from people trying as hard as they can to get what they want. They try so hard that it clouds their sense of Kindness for others. It causes us to forget that the other person is also fighting for something that's just as important. It would be nice that in the middle of all that fighting that the other person opened his eyes and asks "hey! what are you fighting for?" But if that comes, would you answer? Would you think there was any point to tell him your personal reason for fighting?

    I've learned that you don't have to be afraid to tell. Sure he may laugh but not because he thinks your reason is stupid, but because he admires you for fighting for it.

    Or at least I like to think so...
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    Jan 31, 2009 6:26 AM GMT
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    GuerrillaSodomite saidMetaPrayer Time!

    May I be free from Fear
    May I be free from Suffering
    May I be Happy
    May I be filled with Loving Kindness

    May You be free from Fear
    May You be free from Suffering
    May You be Happy
    May You be filled with Loving Kindness

    May We all be free from Fear
    May We all be free from Suffering
    May We all be Happy
    May We all be filled with Loving Kindness

    Thats going on my fridge!!


    These are on mine.

    "Do kindness
    beyond reason,
    Defy Terror
    with beauty.
    Combat darkness
    with infinite light."
    ~M.Schneerson


    "When the Day came-
    The Day I had lived and died for-
    The Day that is not in any calendar-
    Clouds heavy with love
    Showered me with wild abundance.
    Inside me, my soul was drenched.
    Around me, even the desert grew green."
    ~Kabir


    There is not one big cosmic meaning for all,
    there is only the meaning we each give to our life,
    an individual meaning,
    an individual plot,
    like an individual novel,
    a book for each person.
    ~Anais Nin

    "Out of clutter, find simplicity.
    From discord, find harmony.
    In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity"
    ~Einstein

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    Jan 31, 2009 6:27 AM GMT
    Albert Einstein asked smiler questions once on real jock and this is what he came up with...


    "The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity in which we are permitted to remain children all our lives."

    "People start their lives at last when they are able to live for something other then themselves."
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    Jan 31, 2009 6:29 AM GMT
    Stephen415 said
    "People start their lives at last when they are able to live for something other then themselves."


    Why can't people realize this!?
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    Jan 31, 2009 6:34 AM GMT
    tasty_oblivion said
    Stephen415 said
    "People start their lives at last when they are able to live for something other then themselves."


    Why can't people realize this!?


    sadly not all people have a happy rain cloud above there head
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    Jan 31, 2009 6:39 AM GMT
    Stephen415 said
    tasty_oblivion said
    Stephen415 said
    "People start their lives at last when they are able to live for something other then themselves."


    Why can't people realize this!?


    sadly not all people have a happy rain cloud above there head


    Yes I too could use a cute, happy rain cloud