Jan 31, 2009 3:55 PM GMT
Earlier tonight, while I was in the middle of my KFC dinner, melancholy joined me in my table. I couldn't wait to go home and check my RJ mail as I've been getting more lengthy messages than usual, and I love it! You know I don't pay so much attention to the serious topics here. Only this time, due to the glacial pace of the forums, I decided to explore other subjects. Now I find myself reaching out to some incredibly brave individuals here who wrote with the sincerity of their hearts at the risk of getting flamed, judged or ridiculed.
What saddens me is the thought of where or who do they confide to in the absence of the internet at any given time? And then when I realize I'm spending so much time nurturing e-friendships online, is it all worth it? Which then reminded me of an old thread I created last year, re: Is it worth pursuing "friendships" online if you're not gonna meet in person in your lifetime? http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/238062/
I just feel sad that some of the most amazing people I connected to are just so far away. Yet, I am grateful for having "met" them virtually. I don't even understand why I bother so much. I huge part of me wanted to just remain anonymous when I re-joined. But apparently, anonimity doesn't quite agree with me, as many of you were correct in guessing who I was before I "outed" myself. How do you stop caring so much?