That's okay, Bonaparts doesn't know that I fought cancer for two years, that the tumor was so aggressive, it broke three bones in my face, including my upper jaw, during which time most everything I ate was through a straw, that I lost most of my muscle mass in the process.
He doesn't know that when I was healthy enough to start trying to rebuild myself, and finally eat normally, I lost my brother and best friend to heroine. He doesn't know that the depression from the loss combined with eating solid foods again, combined with still being weak, caused me to gain over 200 pounds over the next 2 years.
He doesn't know that my illness bankrupted my parents, and I started working 80 hours a week to try and help them recover, but leaving little time for anything else, like fitness.
He doesn't know that during the process, my body chemistry changed, and during the last 8 year struggle with my weight, I've had to be on a constant diet just to maintain my already heavy weight, and not gain anymore.
He doesn't know that even when I weighed almost 400 lbs, I was still on my feet 12 plus hours a day with work, and that I was able to keep up with my very physical job, that I prefer hikes to tv, that I've sought the help of several personal trainers and doctors without success, or that I went through my 20's without any relationships or sex because I was to embarrassed by my size.
He doesn't know how amazing it feels, even though I'm still fat, and have only been able to average a loss of about 1 pound a week loss, to be back down to a weight I haven't been at in over 5 years.
It is amazing! It feels amazing, and nothing he says will detract from that feeling, or from keeping me from continuing on.
I know posting on here was self serving, but I don't really have many friends, I just don't have time for them, plus I'm only in a place for half a year before I move on again to a new place for work. It doesn't leave much time for friends and relationships. I just needed a little encouragement at an accomplishment for me, and I thank all of you who offered it.