Feb 09, 2016 2:03 AM GMT
So I hired my first escort. I really enjoyed the experience. The guy was nice, clean, easy to talk to, and didn't rush me or pressure me. I was in the mood today and was getting tired of dudes online playing games going back and forth for hours sending me messages. I recently had a dude who apparently loved having sex with me message me yesterday. I don't believe him because he hasn't contacted me since October. He claims we spoke on the phone very recently but its not true. Basically I got tired of the games. I know all gay men go through this because gay men seem to like playing games. Personally I feel my weight is the main issue. I get it. I'm the vast majority of guys back up pick. The guy you call when the dude you want flakes on you. I don't blame these dudes for not wanting me first. I'm fat. My body disgust most gay men. Instead of whining I've decided to just pay for sex until I have a body that more gay men will want and act right to get. Honestly a year ago I would have been ashamed or thought less of myself. I'm sure some of you think less of me but those guys would think less of me if I cured cancer so their opinion has little value. Honestly I'd rather pay than have another dude text me "hey man" or "wassup" weeks later as if I can't figure out how low I am on his list.