Therapy not helping with OCD...don't know what else to do

  • onlyawhisper

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    Mar 14, 2016 9:08 PM GMT
    I decided to make this thread since I believe my last thread about feeling as if I will be alone for the rest of my life, is largely in part to something I've been struggling with for a long time...

    I've struggled with OCD for the majority of my life. I'm 25, and I remember it starting around age 13-14, with other signs of it even earlier than that during my childhood.

    It really started to manifest itself around age 14, my freshman year of high school. It was a year or so after my Dad moved out and my parents' divorce was finalized, and right at about the same time that I started to realize I might be gay, which caused even greater anxiety to me at the time. I believe those events are what triggered it.

    My OCD consists of unwanted thoughts that are intrusive and just really horrible. Things that I know I will never act on. I used to have to do "rituals" to make the thoughts "go away" (complusions), but I've gotten better with that.

    However, I've been to numerous therapists and have even tried Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy and have also tried many different medications. Nothing has seemed to make the thoughts go away, although I'm slightly better at coping with it than I was when I was younger.

    I just don't know what else is left. I feel hopeless and sometimes I wonder if it's worth living like this. Thankfully, I don't think I have the balls to commit suicide and I'd never want to do that to my family or friends. But it's not easy living like this, and I feel tortured on a daily basis.
  • venue35

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    Mar 14, 2016 10:52 PM GMT
    Ocd doesn't just appear out of nowhere some kind of experience you had triggers it. I had a severe case of ocd that was so bad i left school and my home for a year when i was 15. It doesn't sound like you are giving much effort to your therapy.
    The only way to deal with these thoughts that make you feel horrible is to confront them.
    There was a time where my ocd wouldnt let me walk through a certain area or see a specific person. Avoiding these people and places relieves the stress that your ocd is giving you but in the long run you are making things worse.you have to confront these rituals so that you no longer have to do them. Unfortunately therapy didnt help me way back in those days because my ocd was so bad.
    Eventually with time some symptoms go away.
    You are 25.. it's a good age to fight this problem.
  • onlyawhisper

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    Mar 15, 2016 1:14 AM GMT
    venue35 saidOcd doesn't just appear out of nowhere some kind of experience you had triggers it. I had a severe case of ocd that was so bad i left school and my home for a year when i was 15. It doesn't sound like you are giving much effort to your therapy.
    The only way to deal with these thoughts that make you feel horrible is to confront them.
    There was a time where my ocd wouldnt let me walk through a certain area or see a specific person. Avoiding these people and places relieves the stress that your ocd is giving you but in the long run you are making things worse.you have to confront these rituals so that you no longer have to do them. Unfortunately therapy didnt help me way back in those days because my ocd was so bad.
    Eventually with time some symptoms go away.
    You are 25.. it's a good age to fight this problem.


    The thing is though, is that my OCD is more along the pure O (obsessive) line than it is with the compulsions now. I don't really do the rituals that often anymore, but the thoughts are still there and no matter what I try, I can't seem to get rid of them.
  • venue35

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    Mar 15, 2016 9:42 AM GMT
    The fact that the rituals have gone away somewhat is a good sign. You will need to find someone who can help you with the thoughts. The more you fight them the more they will bother you. That is the key-to not care about the intrusive thoughts. Let them come.
  • Fireworkz

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    Mar 15, 2016 7:42 PM GMT
    I think there are a few methodologies that can help you. Have you tried the 3 principles or Theta Healing?

    I might be able to help or can direct you to some coaches/practioners who can help. PM if you want a recommendation.
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    Mar 15, 2016 7:58 PM GMT
    Have you tried medical weed?
  • Fireworkz

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    Mar 15, 2016 8:16 PM GMT
    Also Dr Joe Dispenza does a lot of work around re-wiring your brain.


    I attended a course in Germany last year and met a neuroscientist Dr Fanin who helps soldiers overcome PTSD. He showed us brain maps of what a malfunctioning/incoherent brain looks like and what a healthy brain looks like.

    I suspect OCD is the symptom of a brain that is not functioning coherently.

    here is a video on brain mapping.

  • venue35

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    Mar 16, 2016 1:12 AM GMT
    I tried something similar for my ADD and it didn't do much for me. Ocd needs a therapist who's experienced -period.
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    Mar 16, 2016 6:37 PM GMT
    if a health professional not working as needed ask him/her for references to the next. I mean up front say; "this is not working". at $1,000,000+/hr they grow on trees and no need to feed the overtly wealthy.

    ask him what could you do your self:
    you mentioned family / friends; make a list of the good things you give to each of them. could you give the same things to your self and or your boy friend?



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    Mar 16, 2016 7:07 PM GMT
    I had OCD too.
    What I did was forcefully resist the thoughts and compulsions. For ex: my brain tells me to touch the top right corner of a book. But I just ignore it.
    May be ignoring the thoughts and focusing on something like a hobby helps.
    Even for now, occasionally I get the OCD thing, but everytime I ignore it.
    Do not think you are weak. Not even for a moment. You are strong. We all are strong. We just need different methods for different people. That's all.

    Hugs
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    Mar 16, 2016 7:12 PM GMT
    Like IBS and Shaky Leg Syndrome and a million other new classifications for pretend diseases, these diagnosis are just another way to keep people drugged and visiting doctors. Thank you for falling for this fake ailment and the pharmaceutical industry deeply loves you. If you don't feel the love from big pharma there is a new diagnosis for that and a very expensive medication that will open your mind to feeling the pharma love.
  • onlyawhisper

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    Mar 16, 2016 8:53 PM GMT
    smartmoney saidLike IBS and Shaky Leg Syndrome and a million other new classifications for pretend diseases, these diagnosis are just another way to keep people drugged and visiting doctors. Thank you for falling for this fake ailment and the pharmaceutical industry deeply loves you. If you don't feel the love from big pharma there is a new diagnosis for that and a very expensive medication that will open your mind to feeling the pharma love.


    Okay...