Oct 09, 2007 5:53 AM GMT
I have been in one relationship ever. He helped me come out and I found more peace in my life. I have never met anyone like him where the chemistry was so perfect and we loved being with each other everyday. Now let's fast forward....a bunch of bad luck happened and we were torn apart and he blames me for it. I was in a situation where I had to move back to LA and we had to end it. I was not out to my family and I was scared (being that my family and religion would not be happy with it at all). I became depressed over losing him and I decided to move back to SF to try and fix things. He gave me mixed signals because it seemed all good until I moved back. I got treated like crap and I did anything to hold on to him and in the end got used and stepped on. I try and break away to only have him randomly from time to time call me up to try and snuggle with him or worse....use me for sex. I have strong feelings for him deep down and it kills me to think about him or see him. He is also one to never say what is really deep down because he never wants to get hurt. He says he just wants to be friends and that I should get over it, but why am I the one person he says he trusts and doesn't know what he'd do without me, not to mention he told me when he was drunk that if I hadn't had to move I'd be the person that he would want to marry! Who says that and then treats me like crap. This has left me in a jaded view for the last 2 years and completely single because I have never met anyone with that great chemistry or they are always looking to get laid. Not to mention he ALWAYS knows some how when I feel like I am moving on in my life and happy for once and ruins it by sending me mix signals.What are your thoughts fellas and what should I do?