Being out doesn't necessarily solve all problems, it may even cause more, its a gamble, the trick to it all is self acceptance, so it doesn't matter if you are in or out, its nobodies business apart from our own, there is no shame in keeping it to your self and don't let anyone pressurise you into coming out if you don't want to. If you fall in love with someone then you may make your mind up then, its up to you entirely, I actually find it embarrassing the way many gay guys behave, attention seeking and sleeping around, I don't do that, I am not your average guy, gay or straight, you can't put a specific label onto me, I am way more complex than that, maybe you are the same, I did actually meet someone a few years ago which changed me, him too I expect, it didn't work out for various reasons but maybe if circumstances had been different then I maybe with him now, who knows, it wasn't meant to be. I am on my own and have been most of my adult life, I can live that way as I'm used to it and can do it pretty well but meeting the guy I really liked did make me think about what I was missing, don't rush into anything, things will happen or not when they are meant to so try not to put yourself under pressure for your life being a certain way.
Give yourself a break, maybe take up yoga which will help you focus and calm the mind, its very beneficial and after going through some pretty bad stuff, I took it up which helped immensely in recovering fully from the things that happened in my life, best thing I ever did for myself, just got a few injuries I am getting over before doing the next qualification
Hope that helps