ChicagoSteve saidDo any of you guys wish that we could go back and just not have social media or this whole instant connection online? I realize if we did, I would not be able to write this message right now, but I'm old enough to remember when we did not have the internet and social media, and in a lot of ways it was better. What do you guys think? I'd be interested in getting some younger perspectives because you guys basically grew up with this. I guess what I'm saying is, do you see it as an advantage or a curse?
Being that I was born close to the end of the 20th century and grew up in the 21st century, I am more familiar with digital communication. All of my past relationships with guys have been online long distance relationships. Most of the guys I dated treated me poorly and tried to objectify me; whenever I told them to stop, they would cause drama with me until I was forced to break up with them because I was not going to settle for any less. The only guy who I've dated ho treated me with love and respect made me very happy for once in my life. Unfortunately, he and I were forced to break up when his mom got a job promotion that forced him to move from Texas to a remote part of Alaska with very limited internet access. After that, I was a mess. I barely went outside, I barely talked to anyone, I was an emotional wreck, and I am still trying to figure out how to let go of the past and move on with my life. Ever since then, I have been told by some guys that I'll be "lucky if I ever find true love again." I even had a guy that I met on another website tell me that he would never date a Jewish guy because apparently my Jewish brethren "are all the cause of the world's ills." That has only made my already low self-esteem and self-worth drop even more. Sometimes I even cry myself to sleep because I don't feel worthy of another person's love to be honest. Nowadays whenever I try to find love, I am almost forced to either have to look a certain way or be willing to either give out sex willy nilly or send sexually explicit pictures to perverted guys or even get naked on Skype just so that they can use me and in a way violate me. To be honest, it's been more of a curse than a blessing for me because I don't see many gay guys actually value the importance of chastity until after marriage.