Aug 21, 2016 4:40 AM GMT
Before anyone asks why I ask this, I feel that a little background information is needed:
I have been trying to get over my last boyfriend that I had dated in 2012. He truly was a kind and respectable guy who treated me like a person when other guys treated me poorly. Hell, he made me the happiest guy alive when he asked me to be his boyfriend around the time of my 18th birthday. He helped me feel like I matter and he even helped me build up my self-confidence. Unfortunately, he lived in Texas and well I am stuck in Colorado. But we didn't care; we made it work for a long time. Then August 2012 hit. His mom got a job promotion that forced him to move from Texas to a remote part of Alaska with barely any access. This utterly crushed me as I was planning to get married to him. I honestly felt as if my heart (which has been broken so many times that I think that it has to be "super-glued" together) was ripped out of my body, slashed to pieces, and smashed until there was nothing left. In all honesty, I am still trying to get over it, but it is very difficult for me to get over a guy like him. To me, he was perfect and I felt that I was unworthy of his love. I have even cried myself to sleep some nights because the pain of missing him gets too much for me. I guess what I am trying to ask is why does love hurt so much? :'( I'm sorry for feeling depressed about this; I have been trying to deal with this on my own for four years now.
I have been trying to get over my last boyfriend that I had dated in 2012. He truly was a kind and respectable guy who treated me like a person when other guys treated me poorly. Hell, he made me the happiest guy alive when he asked me to be his boyfriend around the time of my 18th birthday. He helped me feel like I matter and he even helped me build up my self-confidence. Unfortunately, he lived in Texas and well I am stuck in Colorado. But we didn't care; we made it work for a long time. Then August 2012 hit. His mom got a job promotion that forced him to move from Texas to a remote part of Alaska with barely any access. This utterly crushed me as I was planning to get married to him. I honestly felt as if my heart (which has been broken so many times that I think that it has to be "super-glued" together) was ripped out of my body, slashed to pieces, and smashed until there was nothing left. In all honesty, I am still trying to get over it, but it is very difficult for me to get over a guy like him. To me, he was perfect and I felt that I was unworthy of his love. I have even cried myself to sleep some nights because the pain of missing him gets too much for me. I guess what I am trying to ask is why does love hurt so much? :'( I'm sorry for feeling depressed about this; I have been trying to deal with this on my own for four years now.