So I felt really low today and I missed my abusive ex really badly. I missed the friend I thought I had. There is such a sense of loss. I loved this man who was charming in many ways especially in the beginning. But it wasnt real. They say on average it takes a person 7 times of getting back with their abusive ex before the cycle is finally broken. I just wanted to give a shout out to the National Domestic Violence Hotline. The person whom I chatted with really helped me. She gave me some advice, reading material, and some tools and techniques to use in identifying red flags.b