Why is it that I love a fat, thick, 8.5in cock? I've been with smaller ones, and they just don't feel as good. In my head all I want is a chill, nice, loyal guy with a fat dick. Of course there's a lot more to a guy than his size, however I love when a guy is packin fat down there. It's nuts. HELP!
Just some advice, to find lasting relationships, if that's your ultimate goal:
I had a dick of death like you describe, back when I was single. And I'd attract size queens. Who didn't care anything about the rest of me, just my dick.
OK, I could have some casual sex that way. And after it was over, what next? Usually nothing of interest. Except maybe another date with my dick, not with me.
Yah know, the guy attached to that cock you like is a person, too. With interests beyond you pleasuring his dick. If you can't give him more than that a lot of guys won't form a relationship with you. I know I never did. Size queens were my least favorite guys, sorry.