I'm proud of that new picture. It makes you look like a pornstar from the 70's.
Maybe I used to identify with the original post, but thank god, I've grown as a person since then. It takes A LOT of energy to always worry about appearing as the extreme of what you are. It's also senseless if you are not. It's much easier to be who you are and come what may. This is easy to say because a lot of what makes me homosexual (in the way of traits and behaviors) are internalized. On the surface, I am very gruff and some say, offputting due to how gruff.
However, one look in my school satchel might reveal a variety of glitter pens and pencils ornamented with colorful prints in butterflies and tropical flowers. A further investigation might produce my I-Pod (I'm outed if you hear that). If you were determined enough to stick with me, you might observe that I cover my mouth coyly with one hand everytime I laugh and that I do look when I pass boutiques (at the clothes), and that a faint "damn" could be heard from me by the attentive ear, when goodlooking men walked past us. Watching more and you'd find very delicate mannerisms unusual for such a man's man. Furthermore, I don't have a girlfriend and I never look at girls, if I do, one might find that my eyes are noticably up (looking at her hair) or decidedly lower right (looking at her bag). I make no guams about it, and while I'm not a limp wrister, people with the time to kill, have noticed everything I listed and come to the accordant conclusion.
I have tried to suppress myself in the past, but I felt like a robin red breast in a cage. There is no call for it. In my youth, I was very....well not boyish so i'd have to say girly, but I made a concentrated effort to check those traits and due to my determination and the severity of the situation (where I live), it worked. I may have just matured, maybe I did and I also suppressed my real self? Considering the latter, if I were to find myself in the right environment, my former traits might manifest more. I have absolutely no issue with it.