dmostwanted saidMaybe Dubai has the problem...
As much as I'd love to take comfort in that, I realize that everywhere is the same, which is why I do enjoy myself here, no matter how repressive this place is --and I do push the envelope as far as I can, challenging the law and stuff (the thrill is spectacularly breath-taking)... and scaring the cowards away... apparently, I got more balls than what I give myself credit for... and so far, I haven't met a single gay person here who I could consider to be "the bigger man" than me.
It's pathetic that sometimes I would go as far as asking for a hug or a cuddle? Like really, do I have to? Shouldn't that be given freely? A straight man would have no qualms about it, but a gay man? What an insult! If I initiate a hug with a gay man, they'd flinch like I've got a communicable disease.
I'm not asking for sex, I just wanted to be held. That's all.
And most of the time I'd get this from partnered men... who would usually want to take it further --behind their partner's back! I'd only do so if both consented and present
It's easy for others to say they don't give a shit 'cos they already have the attributes that make them initially attractive --tall, well-built, bedroom eyes (bedroom voice even!), etc. --yes, lilTanker
--I'm referring to you, betch!
I notice too that for me to get laid for sure, it'll have to be with a complete stranger, where I am given a chance to reset myself --less talking, less smiling, no humor --which is totally NOT me. No wonder fuckbuddies eventually become friends with me and I could forget about having sex with them ever. I guess I do not really have a very sexual personality --but I couldn't help but be the comic that I am, it's second nature to me.
To paraphrase Cameron Diaz's line in "My Best Friend's Wedding": "I don't want to be put on a pedestal, I wanna be in someone's strong arms."
And I have no plans of commiting the same mistake of getting into a relationship with guys who show genuine interest in me that are not exactly my type (but just 'cos they are interested, I jump the sack with them), it always ends ugly.
I echo junknemesis
' pain, "What is the turn off about being polite, respectful, kind and careing?" I could turn a one night stand into a complete spiritual experience. That's why they're always the best. For now. I'm not getting any younger and nothing's gonna impede me from having fun. But sometimes, you just wanna share that feeling with someone. It's sad to be dating yourself and the city --and in my case, Dubai. *LOL but no LOL*
And I hope those who are in "monogamous relationship" won't be so quick to judge me or anyone else having random sex in the bathrooms with complete strangers, I am single anyway. I'm really throwing myself out there... and this is just a rare reminder to myself that after all the time that passed, hmm... where is he?And I don't ask that often, either.