LGWC saidThere isn't a lot of 'gayness' in my life. I mean there aren't a lot of gay people that I know. I like all my friends, wouldn't want other ones. There is just a lack of gay people. So I come online onto realjock. It 'eases' the itch you could say. Lots of 'me' and "I,' there, but I'm curious if anyone else knows what I'm talking about.
A kind of desire for more 'gayness' in one's life.
I don't have any gay friends in real life either. Before Realjock the first gay community I've been where I actually talked to other gay people about my gayness was an amateur fiction writing site. It made me come to terms with myself better and finally understand I wasn't alone in what I was feeling. Realjock people also helped me come out for the first time in my life last year. Something I would never have had the guts to do.
There are just some things I can't talk about with straight friends. And I guess the forums here serve as an outlet for everything I've bottled up for years (probably why I post so much too! LOL).
But yeah, I get what you mean.
As I've said before to some people here, RJ for now is actually my only window into gay issues for now.
Doesn't necessarily mean wanting a bit of 'gayness' into your life means dressing in drag or going out on parties and getting a hello kitty laptop (LOL), but it's nice to have at least people you can talk to about your crush on this guy or your thoughts on the new gay marriage laws, etc.