My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry.
In late April I lost my amazing pooch, Luke.
I can say, without a doubt... these have been the most emotionally challenging past few weeks. Faced with the 'decision' (after an accident) whether Luke would be able to adjust to a new and additional crippling handicap (he was born blind).. and what the quality of his life would be..... It was the hardest choice I have had to make thus far in my life. If I loved him... I would want what is best for him. No matter how hard it would be/has been for me.
In my heart, I know that Charlie would want what is best for you... hold her memories closely... and know that her spirit lives on within you. Your heart will heal in time.
While I still (yes, right now!) find myself crying at odd times... it still brings me joy seeing someone else walking their dog. I am still coming out of 'hiding', so to speak... all healing will take place in your own time.
Don't allow the devastation of your loss to hold you back from opening your heart to another companion when you are ready. There are many wonderful animals out there who would benefit from a loving heart, such as yours. Again... all when you're ready.
Reaching out (as you are doing), is a very brave step.
Animals have a way of holding up a mirror to us and showing us how 'good' we can be.
Charlie came into your life for a reason. Honor her memory... and take what she has taught you... and let it bring out the best in you.
Warm hug for you,