Veiny Arms

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    May 08, 2009 10:43 AM GMT
    When I was in middle school I wanted veiny arms.

    I was twelve when I thought about killing myself. My parents had split up after years of turbulance and anger; my house and life were torn apart. My father was yelling at me while I laid in bed crying, the razor I was using to try and slash my wrist was hidden from his view. I think it was one of the razors my mom had used to shave her legs that she had left behind. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to reach my veins but thought if I pressed hard enough it wouldn't matter. I remember thinking, "If I had veiny arms this would be so much easier."

    I prayed with all of my heart that god would see me, comfort me, give me strength. I made a promise that I would continue to live. I would eventually be well again, and one day I'd be in love and the happiest I could ever be and I would remember the time I wanted to die and be infinitely greatful that I lived to see the day.

    On my first day of sixth grade my first class was p.e. We were going to have to change clothes, this was serious stuff now, they meant buisness. I foresaw an older version of myself that day taking the SAT. I had no idea that I would soon discover that I was gay or that in a year I would be trying to kill myself.

    That day finally came when I had to take that test. I was stuck in the moment and at the same time pulled back into the past and looking at a clock as Coach Robinson explained we would be now using lockers.

    I have veiny arms now. I'm in college. I make pretty good grades and feel the best I've ever felt. I still havn't found love and havn't given up my dream of becoming a writer. I have made loads of progress in terms of fitness but am always setting new goals. Sometimes I think time can't pass fast enough, that if I could just snap my fingers and be ripped, published, and with the love of my life; I would. But then sometimes like when I'm walking to class and can smell the spring flowers or look at the clouds and have the sun warm my face I feel like I'm right where I'm supposed to be. My past is a part of me, the dark memories will follow me like a shadow, I will always have that tiny scar on my left wrist, all things I'm thankful for because they are constant reminders to simply live. I have to stop and tell myself, "you're only 18, you're only 18, you're only 18" and have to wonder what I'll be like when I'm 25.

    All this at 4:39 in the morning. I had been dancing all night and was going to watch an episode of the outer limits before going to bed, but here I am typing this sentence. I don't really know what prompted me to share this, but I hope that whoever reads it is able to take something from it. At the very least be reminded of the beauty in their own lives.
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    May 08, 2009 7:38 PM GMT
    Veiny arms are very useful if you ever happen to need i.v.-medication or Ringer-solution intravenously:
    Easy to find, and the i.v-canule slides in easily, even in a hurry.
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    May 08, 2009 8:03 PM GMT
    I'm too tired to read your post, but veiny arms are hot!
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    May 08, 2009 8:31 PM GMT
    Um... you were doing it wrong. I won't say why as misinformation can actually save lives, as it did you, obviously.
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    May 08, 2009 10:09 PM GMT
    The one thing that puts me off about the idea of arms so ripped they're all veiny is that somehow I can't stop thinking if I were ever in a knife-fight a visible vein just cries out to be targeted, and if they're all popping against the skin like that and they're severed it seems to me like they'd bleed more quickly than a vein that's got some padding around it applying pressure and what-not. But that might just mean I need to stop obsessing over the possibility of being attacked with a knife.
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    May 08, 2009 10:49 PM GMT
    veiny arms are a blessing, especially when i need to start an I.V. line quickly.

    and yes, i do find them sexy too, lol.
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    May 08, 2009 10:50 PM GMT
    veiny arms = hot
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    May 08, 2009 10:54 PM GMT
    i have always had veiny arms, i have liked it and the one time i gave blood i was done like a minute and a half quicker then most ppl haha
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    May 08, 2009 10:57 PM GMT
    chaos444 saidi have always had veiny arms, i have liked it and the one time i gave blood i was done like a minute and a half quicker then most ppl haha


    myself and the entire medical field would like to thank you for your wonderful veinage icon_smile.gif
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    May 08, 2009 11:05 PM GMT


    I hope the story isn't real..

    But very inspiring.

    I know it's not about veiny arms but I'll go for it, I've always had veiny arms, too much, and on my skinny arms they looked bad, that's why I tried to cover them.

    But now I'm proud of them.
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    May 08, 2009 11:16 PM GMT
    Is he talking about veiny arms from working out...or just having arms with conspicuous veins so he could slash them to commit suicide?
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    May 09, 2009 12:17 AM GMT
    Caslon10000 saidIs he talking about veiny arms from working out...or just having arms with conspicuous veins so he could slash them to commit suicide?

    This is just another creative writing thread from Miasma. Remember the last one that stirred up a lot of attention?

    http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/446196/

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    May 09, 2009 12:18 AM GMT
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    May 09, 2009 1:09 AM GMT
    Ugh! Thats just sick!
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    May 09, 2009 1:10 AM GMT
    xrichx saidvascular.jpg


    Ouch!...lol
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    May 09, 2009 1:14 AM GMT
    Give me a break. Cutting veins won't kill you. It's cutting arteries that kills you.
  • barriehomeboy

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    May 09, 2009 1:24 AM GMT
    OK after seeing that scary veiny muscle guy in his back yard, I'm voting for non-veiny being more sexy.
  • barriehomeboy

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    May 09, 2009 1:25 AM GMT
    and nice work Salieri. But it won't translate to a RealJock forum. :-)
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    May 09, 2009 2:00 AM GMT
    wyrln saidGive me a break. Cutting veins won't kill you. It's cutting arteries that kills you.


    LOL exactly. And given that this is in all probability (given miasma's history here lol) fiction I won't mind telling exactly how he was doing it wrong then.

    There are 3 very visible arteries in the arms. The Radial Artery, the Ulnar Artery (both in the wrist), and the most visible of them all, the Brachial Artery right on the inside of your elbow. Those are what usually kills you. But to be fair, cutting veins can also kill you... just a bit more unlikelier.

    All blood vessels can seal themselves though if cut or punctured, especially if only cut sideways. Veins seal themselves better, arteries take a bit since they're of higher pressure, being from the heart. Nevertheless both take hours before they kill you. Long painful hours. Especially if you do it with the 'lengthwise' cut (which more often than not, misses the radial artery that it was supposed to slit open completely anyway). And there's a high chance you'll be found before it does kill you.

    Those who attempt suicide by slitting wrists are doing it with the expectation of getting attention before they die. Whatever the case, if you want attention - talk, don't try killing yourself.
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    May 09, 2009 3:50 AM GMT
    How could everyone have missed your point? Veiny arms was just a title to your rant. If you stuffed it with entire parts from the Odissey the replies would be the same. icon_razz.gif
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    May 09, 2009 6:05 AM GMT
    Caslon10000 saidIs he talking about veiny arms from working out...or just having arms with conspicuous veins so he could slash them to commit suicide?


    both

    Unlike some of the other threads, this is a true story. This is my story.
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    May 09, 2009 12:45 PM GMT
    bachian saidHow could everyone have missed your point? Veiny arms was just a title to your rant. If you stuffed it with entire parts from the Odissey the replies would be the same. icon_razz.gif


    Ya, I'v noticed that ... it's such a shame.. shows how people in RJ reply without reading the topic..

    I found it weird that I'm the only one that noticed that it isn't about veiny arms at all..
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    May 09, 2009 1:01 PM GMT
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    Caslon10000 saidIs he talking about veiny arms from working out...or just having arms with conspicuous veins so he could slash them to commit suicide?

    This is just another creative writing thread from Miasma. Remember the last one that stirred up a lot of attention?

    http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/446196/



    LOL
    If you forward this post to 3 member in the next 45 seconds you will meet an old friend today.
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    May 09, 2009 6:47 PM GMT
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    May 09, 2009 6:56 PM GMT


    Miasma, I think you already have what it takes to be a great writer.
    I'm also glad that you were unsuccessful in carrying out your untimely demise.

    -Doug