I don't understand how this is a FRIEND with benefits?
What part of the definition of the word Friend has "He's only nice to me when he wants stuff from me, otherwise he's rude, sometimes telling me to "fuck off". But for some reason I just keep going back....
" How does that sound like a friend?
Truth Hurts....He is using you, INCLUDING THE SEX!
Your GUT is telling you to CUT TIES because our instinct is there to save us from bad situations and pain.
How did you not expect to start having feelings for someone you have been sleeping with for the last 2-3 YEARS??
You have been lying to yourself for the last 2-3 years. NOW its time for truth cause its not just fun and games anymore. Truth is...IF you don't think you are better than this crap- you will stay put. IF you can realize you are worth more than his abuse....YOU will RESPECT YOU first, before you can expect anyone else to respect you.
I've gone through this, but it was 4 years, TIME COMES FOR YOU TO COME FIRST and make a decision. It hurts more than ever to let that one you love/feel for go. But if you don't...... the abuse will get worse and the type of shit you tolerate will too. When does it stop? When do you want it to stop? Today?
All the best surferdude1101, you are stronger than you could ever imagine...you just have to trust yourself, make a decision and stick to it come hell or high water, MOST IMPORTANTLY on those nights alone.