You have to view food as a fuel, and the body as a machine, with the quality of food determining the performance of the machine, with excercise a way to may you feel and perform better that isn't work or a chore, but, soemthing that you enjoy and adds many benefits to your life.
Your first choice of action has to be a firm commitment to change many things in your life. Not just that you're tired of being a fat ass, but, that you're tired enough to take action and continue taking action for the rest of your life and to change your lifestyle and playthings. You can not use food as a drug. You cannot hang around folks who behave in derelict behavior and utilize food improperly. You have to learn to make decisions, on a minute by minute basis that will change your life for the better, and that you will no longer, NEVER be a lazy, undisciplined, out-of-shape, self-pitying, fat ass you now are. You take the world by the balls, and squeeze, and WIN.
The change comes from the mind; from the lifestyle; from doing it consistently, and getting rid of folks in your life that would be enabler to your old life no matter how enchanting they might be..
While the change is incremental, the change MUST be forever, unless you want to return where you are: fat, sick, low esteem, making excuses, lazy, wishful, and so on. CHANGE. Stay changed.
Obesity is by far the single most preventable Inness on the planet. You need to get off your dead fat ass, join the living and the benefits of good health, if not just for yourself, but also for your loved ones, and so as not to burden society in general as you grow older.
Walk into, through, and beyond your comfort zone to a better way of living.
Get up from the computer, right now, and get going on it.
Being healthy is one of the EASIEST things you can do for yourself. Now, just go do it.