First sexual awakening, gay or straight?

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    Nov 13, 2007 7:43 PM GMT
    I'm not talking about your first masturbation. I'm talking about the first acknowledgment of all thing sexual. I mean, we all grow up pretty much the same. sex is just the difference between mommy and daddy, boys and girls.
    What i mean by awakening is when "sex" start to interests you, or that you start to build more curiosity because of it. The reason behind the question is to find out how much does the first experience shape the way we are? If the first desire were gay or straight make any difference?
    I suppose some might give example that they saw straight porn first. I wonder if it's the male that interested you or female?

    so I guess i'll share first. The earliest sexual acknowledgment was prob. back at age 4-5. I remember there was a guest at our home, and I pass by the bathroom, and he (maybe in his 40) walked out in a boxer after a shower. He was joking that I was peeking at him taking a shower, which i guess i was. and he jokingly grope me. and i grope him back, right under the boxer. It feels all soft and warm. I had no idea what i was holding, but i knew it feels funny, and theres weird feeling inside of me.

    to this day, when i think about my earliest sexual awakening, i'd credit it back to that moment. And i wonder maybe i turn gay because of it.
  • GQjock

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    Nov 13, 2007 9:51 PM GMT
    First was str8...
    then I didn't know what I was missin'
    my second awakening came soon after ...
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    Nov 14, 2007 12:13 AM GMT
    Straight, very very briefly.
    Then gay all the way. icon_smile.gif
  • Timbales

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    Nov 14, 2007 3:39 AM GMT
    I was straight and dated girls until I was about 20.
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    Nov 14, 2007 3:45 AM GMT
    DEFINATELY gay!! I used to have a major thing for my wrestling coach. It became tricky when he jicon_redface.gifined us in the showers after practice!
  • MarkX

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    Nov 14, 2007 3:54 AM GMT
    I'd have to admit to having the antithesis of ebl333's experience. During junior and senior high school, I turned down the sexual advances of several young women. As a college freshman, I was seduced (more or less) in the back seat of a car by a man. I suppose that was my sexual awakening, though it didn't really have the necessary accompanying spiritual component.

    About a month later, I broke through my emotilogical barriers and fell in love, hard. It wasn't until about four months later that I started enjoying sex.

    The next summer, assuming I was bi-, I had sex with a woman whom I'd fancied throughout high school. It was nice, but it didn't take.

    I was a LATE bloomer. I blame my early and complete acceptance of a faulty religious upbringing.

    I know, TMI.
  • MarkX

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    Nov 14, 2007 3:54 AM GMT
    Despite all that, I'm positive I was gay ot of the womb.
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    Nov 14, 2007 12:47 PM GMT
    not sure if you guys understand my initial question. But the whole idea to to find out the "earlies" awakening. For example, the first time you fantasies someone sexually, or the first time someone stimulated you sexually. was it man or woman.
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    Nov 14, 2007 11:47 PM GMT
    First gay, second straight, then third gay.

    I was just horny (I guess still am). I was pretty young. I still remember the extreme, dizzy-ing horniness of it all. And the shame.

    I read a quote today by Phillip Pullman about his book and the movie based on it The Golden Compass, "This is what happens in the Garden of Eden. They become aware of sexuality, of the power the body has to attract attention from someone else. This is not only natural, but a wonderful thing! To be celebrated! Why the Christian
    Church has spent 2000 years condemning the glorious moment, well, that's a mystery. I want to confront that, I suppose, by telling a story that this so-called original sin is anything but. It's the thing that makes us fully human."



    BTW, I don't think that the Christian Church is one thing that can be said to have existed that long, it is many things, but the point is the shame.
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    Nov 15, 2007 10:53 PM GMT
    the earliest that i could remember was maybe around 6/7yo, myself, sister and cousin were going through my uncle's belongings and we came across his pornos. i remember we flicked over to one page which was a close up of a woman getting a facial and i stared at it and wondered what it would feel like to do that. we were all giggling 'cos we didn't understand what was going on in the pictures.
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    Nov 17, 2007 12:38 PM GMT
    Funny you bring that up, I'm not really sure. As a child I always had a fascination with other boys bodies and older boys and men. It used to give me hard ons and I didn't know they were sexual feelings, they were just feelings. At eleven I had my first of an all summer long experience with gay sex with another guy on my baseball team. Then later with a few older boys. When I found out what a Queer was at age thirteen, and what a heinous crime it is against God and Humanity, I was very ashamed and tried to go straight which turned out to be a disaster. Was it like that for anyone else?
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    Nov 17, 2007 1:03 PM GMT
    I have always been something of a loner. But I have had my fucks and my loves. My first loves and fucks were with women, but they felt so hollow and blunt. I never felt passion or longing until I was with a man.

    I had a girfriend for about a year. She lived with me. I fucked her a few times. I loved her in a way. But it was such a shallow connection. She cooked and cleaned. She made sure I took my medications. She was a little crazy and had a drug problem. She was a smoking HOT latina- great tits and ass.

    The funny thing is that long after we parted ways (I couldn't handle her drug problem or her fucked up friends coming around me); I had a boyfriend who was just like her: Mexican, crazy, addictive, pretty face, nice body, and an almost total lack of the sexual relationship component. I heard he has gotten a bit fat since the last time I saw him. The last time I had any contact with him was online. He still owes me $400 for the 4x6 picture window he smashed. She was prettier than he was though. And a lot kinder at heart. I think I miss her more sometimes. I never had to use my kung fu on her. Pinche borracho loco! icon_rolleyes.gif
  • zakariahzol

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    Dec 06, 2007 10:29 AM GMT
    Boys all the way. I keep having crushes on school mate, male teacher, male singer and male actor. I do have crushes on one girl who is my neighbour. I tought I gonna marry her when I grow up. Then after I finish high school , further study in United States. She married somebody else and I being gay ever since.
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    Dec 06, 2007 10:31 AM GMT
    i remember i was always gay in the elementary school i liked some special boysicon_biggrin.gif then when i was 11 i realized that im gay and there is something called sex icon_redface.gif and had my frist experience when i was 13
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    Dec 06, 2007 1:10 PM GMT
    gosh, every time i heard stories on teen "experience", it make me feel i miss out the best time of my life. the sex drive was the highest during that period, and the idea of love is pure. yet i was too chicken to step out of closet.
  • jrs1

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    Nov 25, 2009 3:38 AM GMT


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    Nov 25, 2009 3:49 AM GMT
    When I was about 6 my brother and his friend taught me to beat off (or whatever it is you do when you're six) so that I guess would be gay then girls till I was 18. Then bi & gay again.