I Feel Old Why am I rushing?!?!

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    Jun 09, 2009 11:11 AM GMT
    I don't know why, but I feel 100 years old and feel like I'm going to die any second even though I'm only 18 years old (yeah,crazy)

    I'm always trying to get things done fast like I have some sort of Dead line,literally. I am always trying to do things at once and sometimes having to much on one plate to handle.Like how I want to go to esthetician school to get my licence, but 6months of school feels long to me and after I get out I feel like I'm to old or to late to do anything(even though I would only be 20-21 depending on when I go).

    I don't know if I got this from my past crazy schedule.
    7:30-2:30pm school
    3:00-10:30pm Work
    11pm-1:00am homework/Flute practice

    I worked almost every day except Wednesday which was private lessons for an hour after school. Then I would do the rest of my practice at home which was 4 hours without the hour lesson. My mom told me to take things one step at a time but I just didn't for some reason... I worked soo hard to get a $10,000 scholarship towards school/and a brand new instrument. I Had The perfect Teacher,got to study with the professor of the U of A even though I was only a high school student, Had my piece almost solid. But Then I noticed my grades started to slip,So I had to quit my job,stop lessons,and couldn't afford my studio time to record my audition piece. To keep things short(even though it really wasn't lol) Everything came tumbling down from there and I dropped out of school.

    So my question is. How Do I keep myself from going over board and doing things one step at a time and not trying to rush rush rush?

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    Jun 09, 2009 2:40 PM GMT
    Umm... when you get a ph.d., then you can complain about being in school for a long time. If your only basis for school is high school, you have a lot to learn. In terms of making more time and slowing down, some people are good at that and some people aren't. It seems as if you have too much on your plate at once. The best time managers know how much they can handle at any given point, who to accurately project their time goals, and when to say no to something.
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    Jun 09, 2009 2:49 PM GMT
    Up until February 2008 I had worked full time and went to school full time since 2001. Now I work 40-80 hours a week as needed.

    In that crazy time I learned how to keep myself organized, prioritize my work, and stay happy without the aid of cheap scotch.

    Six months is nothing. And if it will make you happy and find you a better job then go for it.
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    Jun 09, 2009 2:54 PM GMT
    Get back in school. There are a lot of things that can be taken away from you but a good solid EDUCATION is not one of them.

    This time around don't put sooooo much on your plate. You have to live a balanced life. Don't work everyday if you and also out more the days you do not work then study your craft.

    But get your behind back in school. Don't throw your scholarship away my guess is you wroked to hard for it.

    That is the one thing about kids today you guy have such full schedules, You are soo overwhelmed with activities.

    Your day began at 7:30am and it did not end until 1:00am. That's crazy.
    Not many professionals have that kind of schedule. When do you have fun?
    You did not mention that at all. I don't think it's a question of you feeling, your just bone tired.

    Good Luck Kevin.
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    Jun 09, 2009 3:09 PM GMT

    Keep BUSTING your ass now! DO NOT STOP!!! When school is over you'll have ALL the time in the world to stop & smell EVERYTHING!!! DO IT ALL now, you're on a roll!!! I know it BLOWS right now, but don't give in! Just keep it going!! TRUST me it'll ALL pay off in the end!!!
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    Jun 09, 2009 3:27 PM GMT
    I feel that same way too!!!
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    Jun 09, 2009 6:18 PM GMT
    Six months of school is nothing.

    I understand the feeling though... from the time I was 15 till I was 19 I felt like I was on the short train headed for a collision with a brick wall. Felt like I had no time to actually live, and I was convinced that I was going to die very young.

    It took getting my priorities in order to fix that, and let me tell you right now that YOU NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL.

    The degree is not always what's important. You are much more likely to meet motivated, intelligent people who will help you make positive changes in your life if you go to school than you are working at the local DQ or whatever.

    Getting things done in good order is as simple as making a check list every morning and checking things off as you go. When you're tempted to do things not on the list, consider whether they are actually priorities or whether they can wait till tomorrow.

    But don't be afraid of your working mentality. Some of my friends think I do a crazy amount of work/practice even though I do a pretty average amount of both, but the point is that you are at school to work and make something of yourself.
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    Jun 09, 2009 6:32 PM GMT
    I know its hectic but it will be worth it. I went to school and got all my advanced degrees when I was in my 20's and did not have the added burden of family, responsibility ,etc.

    When you have to take care of ailing/aging parents, children, family, etc its very had to balance that kind of thing and the demands of school. Right now as a younger man you dont have those burdens. Take advantage of that.

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    Jun 10, 2009 12:35 AM GMT
    Thank you guys for your replies.I'm probably going to get my priorities set straight first before I try anything else.

    And No there was no time for fun. I had big conservitories i wanted to get into so all my practice time took away my fun time.