Sometimes you feel like dick, sometimes you don't. Jeeze. Stop it with all this I,I,I crap and just go with whatever works.
There's not a rule here that says you have to be 100% one or the other. Do what you feel like, and it'll fix itself. Just don't be stupid (sex practices, marriages, deceit, discreet, pictureless, anonmymous, and so on).
Life is to short for all that self-imposed shit.