Sep 28, 2009 4:39 PM GMT
My name’s William and I’m “new” to the site. I put the word new in quotations because although I just recently created a profile, I’ve been browsing the site for years. I never posted to any of the boards or voiced my opinion on any of the topics because as you can see from my profile, I just recently turned 18. I felt that now that I’m of the legal age to officially join the site, I might as well create a real profile. I first knew I was gay when I was about four years old. I knew what “gay” meant because my mom told me about an older half brother I had who was also gay. She simply explained to me that he liked guys instead of girls. It was never a big deal with my family that I had an older gay brother. He is pretty flamboyant, so nobody was really surprised when he came out. I basically pushed my homosexual feelings into the back of my mind for years. When I was 13, hormones started kicking in and for the first time, I started feeling strong sexual attractions towards members of the same sex. From that moment, I knew these feelings weren’t going anywhere. I came out to one of my female friends that year as “bisexual.” I know I’m not bisexual, I just used that label to mask my true feelings a little bit. She was very accepting and actually thought it was pretty cool. I would never have thought of coming out to any of my male friends because I already knew how bad that would have turned out. Although I did manage to come out to one person, I still had trouble accepting myself. That’s when I started looking towards the internet. I was able to discover this site along with a couple of other gay oriented blogs and forums. I found this site one of the most interesting because it wasn’t strictly focused on sex. I enjoyed how I could see gay men discuss so many different topics. Although I did, and still do, have strong opinions on many of the topics discussed, I never posted to any of the boards. Basically, this site has helped me throughout my high school years to fully come out and accept myself. Now, I’m currently a freshman in college and I’m so glad that I was able to deal with the trials and tribulations of coming out to family, friends, dealing with relationships, and sex during my younger teenage years so that I have a better understanding of myself before I even entered the legal adult world. All I have to say is thank you to RJ and the members for creating a community that has allowed young kids like me to see and learn all about the positives and negatives of the gay community.