Hi again guyz,yeah, he has been going to a therapyst and has been on meds for bout 3 weeks. yesterday we had such a huge argument and he said sum nasty things. I feel like I dont know him any more. He told me if I cant handle ' The Break' , then we should just quit completely. He has sooo many issues, depression, denial bout being gay, deat of his dad and loosing his business. We broke up in august, but he told me that he DOES love me, and we tried to give it ago. In that time he started seeing a therapist and is on medication. But we argued alot, I just felt as tho I was being kept around, altho I was aware that that was not the case, but still caused arguments. There is absolutly nuthing wrong with our relationship.The strange thing is that it all started in a matter of days. i know this person he has become, isn' t him. Like I said, this is the man I want to spend my life with, and I know deep down he feels the same. He has stopped all contact with me and asked me to leave him alone, and says that when I sms or call him, he feels like more down. Im not sure if hes pushing me away to protect me?! He also comes up with all these excuses, and blames me for sum of the problems.My head is totaly f****d. mainly cause I know he does love me. I have now relised that if I can have a chance with him, I need to leave him alone. Guys, do u think that things like this work out in the end?
Its just that taking a break is bloody hard -p. If we had a bad relationship, I guess it would make sense, but the only reason we were arguing alot is because of the actuall depression. I used to blame myself, because alot of the time I felt like sumthing is wrong with me. I couldve left a long time ago, but realised that it wasnt him, it was this depression that caused it. I just hope that he realises that too,coz at the moment he feellike the realationship ' died out' , but saus he is speaking to his therapyst bout that. Ive realised that he has pushed me away, to ' fix' himself, and I cant put preasure on him, as that will only push him away. I just get so p...sed of with myself, coz I know how things are between us, but my mind starts playing games. He would' ve told me to push off long ago had he not loved me. Just last week we saw 2 old gay guys, and he said to me " thats us in 20 years' , and I think that shows sumthing. Its just riding this out thats the hard part. My close friend told me I need to look at it as him being " sick" ( like swine flu ) and I need to give him space to recover. That helped me alot too. I just want to say thanks again guys.