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    Dec 20, 2007 12:50 PM GMT
    What would you do if everyone treated you like a hideous freak, but they were still trying to fuck you figuratively and literally?

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    Dec 20, 2007 6:06 PM GMT
    Ever see the Tod Browning's movie Freaks?

    That is how you treat such people.
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    Dec 20, 2007 7:47 PM GMT
    I have seen it- I seem to recall that it had a violent ending.
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    Dec 21, 2007 2:50 AM GMT
    First of all...i don't get the hideous part...you're pretty hot. The freak part i cant really say n e thing about since i dont really know u...but i say enjoy the sexicon_biggrin.gif...as for the fucking u figuratively...i say fuck em and leave em...of course when u leave them...make sure u leave them asking for more...the best revenge is making your foe fall for u and then crushing their heart...nothing beats watching and asshole crumble under the weight of his own broken hearticon_biggrin.gif...of course this is assuming that the person REALLY deserves it
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    Dec 21, 2007 3:20 AM GMT
    nysexy, harsh...remind me never to date you. As for you lovesickmotherfucker, i can't imagine why someone would treat you like a freak...you only do your hair like Ace Ventura, have wild eyes, oh, and you call yourself lovesickmotherfucker. Have you ever heard the phrase birds of a feather?

    If you don't want to keep attracting freaks, stop acting like one. I've read your post, you are very smart. I can tell, but if your pictures are any indication of what you look like day to day, yikes.

    My mother told me (and i know everyone's mother said this) you have to be a friend to make a friend. As i've grown, i enact everyday a new spin on mom's old cliche. I feel you have to be what you want to attract. Like me....i want a nice man so I do my hair nice, conduct myself nice, keep my body nice and these are the sorta men that gravitate to me, guys that are nice. The freaks, thugs, and jerks....know to stay away. Plus, they all say i'm too nice.

    And another thing, someone treats you badly, they ain't worth your time. I'd rather go without sex for months (and I have) then to lower myself by sleeping with someone who didn't treat me well.

    LOL, I know i'm preachin to the sinners here, do you get me? And, what kinda guy are you wanting to attract?
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    Dec 21, 2007 4:47 AM GMT
    lol...guilty...i'm not THAT bad...i only react badly if a person's being a jerk for no apparent reason or if they r out to treat me like crap to service their own ego..that just pisses the hell out of me. Other than that...I am a pretty nice guy i've been told.icon_biggrin.gif

    And Lovesick...i agree wiht Guilty in that its better to not waste your time wiht ppl that don't appreciate u...from what i know of u from your profile...it seems that it will be their loss
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    Dec 21, 2007 10:26 AM GMT
    Where the hell is Obscenewish to explain to you all how things like reactive attachment, lack of object constancy, lack of occupational salience, chronic severe insomnia, cerebro-cortical underarousal, PTSD symptoms, solipsistic egocentricity, chronic dysphoria, severe akathisia (im rocking and jerking in my chair as I type this), malignant inferiority, and anhedonia could become sigfnificant obstacles to my perception, apprecition, and reciprocation of love. They also tend to severely undermine any positive incentments or any concerted efforts to pursue it.

    Don't be mistaken, this is not about me seeking pity or consolation, or even about why i don't have a strapping young smooth, chiseled, socially integrated, euthymic, boy toy. If anything this is a vaguely malevolent ultimatum that I would really like to deliver myself from. The screen name is actually meant to be an ironic statement about my general condition. The hideous freak in me cannot be soothed by sore ego balms like sex, companionship, or compliments. They are nothing but more hard, cold, sterile, golden objects to poor old King Midas. I feel like I'm stuck somewhere between the worlds of Vonnegut's Harisson Bergeron and Kosinski's Painted Bird. Patience and good will towards socially integrated fagots is one of my scarcest resources.

    To any of you out there who might understand the significance of this- my lowest hospital admission GAF was 15! I can't really be anything less than a hyper-irritable, paranoid and sadistic dick without divalproex, gabapentin, guanfacine, venlafaxine, memantine, ropinirole, and temazepam. That wild look in my eyes is due to a global dysfunction of my sympathetic nervous system. People accuse me of being a fucking tweaker or a cluck. My life sucks as it is but more often than not some buster-ass fag tries to insinuate that I am just a weak willed loser, but they still try to stay just within my good graces enough to make a clumsy attempt at getting in my pants.

    I won't stand for it anymore, just the slightest whiff of that kind of egregiously flippant attitude from the guys I meet makes me MAD. I can't really enjoy sex with all these fucking drugs in my head. I'm not even worried about attracting anybody. I'm not a promiscuous or desperate little histrionic lap dog like GETTOKNOWIT. Guys should really be more worried about exactly what I think that they deserve, because as Nietzsche once wrote, "out of the eye of your judges there always glanceth the executioner and his steel". This is not about me lowering my standards to get sex partners, this is about me desperately looking for the reason and the means to embrace one of the most basic and necessary sentiments that unites human society. This isn't about them not fully appreciating me, this is about people not fully appreciating how horrible and savage my instinctive reactions tend to be.










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    Dec 21, 2007 9:04 PM GMT
    DUDE! That stuff is like graffiti for your brain. Uuuugh, I feel like my senses need a shower now.