Nov 29, 2009 2:12 AM GMT
I've only had one real boyfriend. We dated for 8months and I fell in love with him. He said he loved me. Things got complicated later on and I broke up with him. Yet, I was the heartbroken one.
I didn't start talkin to anyone again til about 1.5yrs later, then I didn't start looking for someone to date til about 2yrs after we broke up. 4years later I decided to try another relationship out with someone I thought was suitable. I broke up with him after 3 weeks because I wasn't developing any feelings for him. We had talked longer than 3 weeks but, only were serious for those 3. I don't consider that really being in a relationship. To each their own tho.
Getting to the point, its been 4yrs later and I've been in contact with my first exbf off and on throughout this whole time. Well I move back to Louisiana, which is where we met. We live an hour away from each other instead of 12hours. We went out to a movie together a couple of saturdays ago and we both had a great time with each other.
I was trying to keep my cool around him the whole time, but on the inside I was melting in his presence. He doesn't know how much he means to me. I'm trying to play it safe with him, because i dont want him to hurt me again. After the movie at the theater, we stayed in the parking lot for 3hours just talking to each other, getting to know each other.
He apologized for the things he did that hurt me, which meant a whole lot to me. I was still trying to play it cool though. He told me he still thinks of me. I told him that I hate to think about him cause I dont want to get caught up in him again and get hurt. At the end of the night, we gave each other a hug, neither of us would let go. At that time, he said "I love holding you Max" and I replied back with "I love you holding me too" . Then eventually I backed away, trying to play it cool. While backing away from the warm embrace, I leaned in for a kiss and then quickly stopped myself....then we said our goodbyes and parted ways.
Since then I've been trying to stay strong. I would love to see us back together, but I dont wanna be played with and I dont want him to hurt me again. So for a while I wouldn't contact him until he contacted me first. After the movie, he did just that. He would text me and see whats up and I would start up a conversation. Earlier this week, he said he would try to come visit me, which was an idea I liked. However, we never made solid plans for when. Now its nearing the end of the week and he still hasn't made it to me. I dont want to seem desperate and keep asking him to come see me or keep asking him to hang out. Although for the past couple of days, I broke my rule, and I started to contact him first. If I start talking about feelings, I'm sure it will drive him away if its too soon.
So what do I do?
How do I know if he's trying to get serious again or not?
What do I do to help things move along if he is serious?