Nov 30, 2009 6:39 AM GMT
This is part II of this topic. For part I, please click http://www.realjock.com/gayforums/730994/
Today the Ex-Boyfriend and I talked...
Here is how the conversation went: Red is Me, Black is Him
-What u up to handsome?
Not much.. just now getting out of bed. What u up to?
-Really? Wow, Mr Lazyday? Thats a first. I'm excited to hear that. I'm just hangin out. I have enough fuel if you'd like to hang out today.
I would like too but its my turn to come out there, remember?
-Well i'd like that, will u do it?
<<<< One Hour Later >>>>
Yea I told u that ill come out there. I know you're strapped for cash so its no point in trying to drive out just to hangout.
-We could play vid games...
Haha, yea we could. What I was saying was since you're broke I don't want to try to scrap up money to try and get there.
-Thats why I offered to come to you.
No no no lol. Sorry not being clear. I dont want you to come here because I know u are broke lol.
-I wouldn't have offered if it were a problem. So?
Yea I know u wouldn't offered. But i do think next sat possibly would be better though.
-Are you sure? Alright, Saturday it is then, Mr. Can I ask you a question?
Yea go ahead.
-Why did u tell me that you still think about me?
Well I do.. Even when we broke up I did. Have to make sure you're not dead or anything lol.
-That didn't really answer the question. Why did u tell me? The reason why u think about me is to make sure I'm not dead?
I dont kno Max why i told you......why not?! I would be lying if I said i didn't think about you.
-When u call me sexy and handsome, are you flirting with me?
I'll stop saying that if it bugs u. But I tend to say it alot.
-If you dont mean anything by it, then no, I don't want you call me that.
-I'm not upset or anything. I just needed to clear things up. You had me a little confused by all that when we went out. The way u said and did things made me think u were open to creating a new spark between us. Its ok if you're not or if u are, but i'd like to be sure of which it is. That's all :-)
Yea I would like to try to get that spark but there is a reason why i'm single. I just know right now is not a good time to be in a relationship.
-The spark is there. Like I said, I'm not going to push u into something u dont want. Its cool, I can handle that. I do believe u have a fear of committement tho. I just don't want u to lead me on, ok.
- I am curious to why u feel this way about . I truly believe that if you aren't willing to change your perspective now, you won't be willing to in the future either. You'll always find a reason to reaffirm that "now" will not be the right time.
Max, I know myself better then anyone. I know when I want to date and I know when I shouldn't date.
-Alright, that's cool. So why are you against it right now?
Right now I wouldn't be able to be a good bf to anyone. Right now school and work are my main focus.
-What would u not be able to do that a good bf could?
Really just being there. I wouldn't be able to be there like I want to.
-And that's all I would ask for. If you can't handle that, that's ok. I'm glad we can have an honest mature conversation.
-Are we still on for Saturday tho?
Yes sir we are.
-Ok, cool beans, I'm gonna finish watchin this movie with my dad, Message me later if ya want.
Or you can msg when you're done. I'll be up :-)
So I guess you guys were all right. I hope you're proud.