Ever have that moment where you feel REALLY gay
Well, as the great 18th-Century Frenchman Voltaire observed: "There is a fine line between gayness and lunacy." Or maybe it was W.C. Fields, I get all those philosophers mixed up...
In the OP's case, he seems to have proven even Voltaire wrong, or whoever it was wrote that (maybe even me?). As for myself, I suppose it's when I was still doing drag, and I'd have one of those "what the HELL am I doing???" moments.
Not quite the same thing as getting unexpectedly caught doing something outrageously gay, as in the OP's example, because I was performing before an audience, but the absurd reality of it could suddenly strike me all at once.
Oh, and I suppose that moment can also be a pleasant one, like whenever I find myself sunning naked poolside, at some gay resort surrounded by other naked men in our own exclusive little gay world, and I just smile to myself & think: "Gawd, I'm so glad I'm gay! And why did I wait so long to accept it? Now THIS is my idea of being queer! Does it get any gayer than this?"
Or yet another example is when we're giving a dinner party at home, and as usual I take the duties of setting the table. And it's always something new & different, set to a theme that our gay friends haven't seen before, that makes them gasp and praise us when they walk in the door, and want to take photos of it before we sit down.
And basking in the glow of their compliments, I think to myself: "Damn, I AM gay, aren't I? What straight man could or would do this? Thank you, gawd or parents, or whatever gave me the gift of being gay, and the opportunity to express it and get so much enjoyment from it."