THE DAY I STOP BEING SILLY, is the day I become old

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    Jan 20, 2010 4:22 PM GMT
    When I was young I studied adults very carefully, as most children do. And a common trait I noticed among them was a sour grimness that grew worse with age. And when I'd talk with them, especially those outside my immediate family, it was more like a formal interview than a conversation fit for a child. Or else they attempted faux baby-talk, which was worse.

    I noticed that none of them got down on the floor and played with me, not even my parents, nor did they even stoop down to my level to speak, or kneel next to me so we could make ordinary eye contact. They were towering giants who looked down on me in more ways than one, while I was compelled to always look up to them.

    And none of them were silly like a child is silly and nonsensical. Oh, the adult actors on TV were, and in old movies I'd see, but in real life adults were a dull lot. I decided that I'd never become like that, and that the day I did I would have become an old man like them, a fate I wanted to avoid. Perhaps it's my gayness that gives me a Peter Pan syndrome, that I don't ever want to grow up.

    And so when I became a father I played with my kids on the floor with them, and shared their toys (when they let me), something my own father never did, not once. And among my adult friends today I am known for being totally silly and off-the-wall, though also very serious when circumstances warrant.

    I like to believe the US Army didn't promote me from Private all the way to Colonel, purely by mistake all those many steps, meaning I can act adult enough when I want. And serious & grim enough, as my grumpy political tirades here on RJ may suggest.

    But if I ever lose my silly side, and become all grumpy, then one foot's already in the grave. What are your thoughts about yourself?
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    Jan 20, 2010 4:35 PM GMT
    I can't read anything from you without thinking of your wanting to kiss the fellow military officer at the staff meeting. icon_wink.gif

    I am as silly as the day is long and feel very old lately icon_neutral.gif
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    Jan 20, 2010 4:42 PM GMT
    I think "silly" and "old" fit together quite nicely icon_lol.gif
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    Jan 20, 2010 4:44 PM GMT
    right idea, but different words for me.... the less I play the older I will get.
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    Jan 20, 2010 4:47 PM GMT
    turbobilly saidI can't read anything from you without thinking of your wanting to kiss the fellow military officer at the staff meeting. icon_wink.gif

    I am as silly as the day is long and feel very old lately icon_neutral.gif

    You remember that anecdote of mine about the staff meeting kiss??? I sometimes think nobody reads anything I post here, and that was like a year ago or something.

    So, you silly person you, what makes you feel old? Old is an inescapable chronology, that we can objectively tract. Silliness is a state of mind that we cannot tract, that makes the old appear young, that defies age.

    We are all actors in Life, and if we act young, then the illusion of youth can be preserved. Some do it better than others, winning the equivalent of the Academy Award, while others get the vaudeville hook and are hooted off the stage.

    So again, what makes you feel old?
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    Jan 20, 2010 4:51 PM GMT
    SAHEM62896 saidright idea, but different words for me.... the less I play the older I will get.

    Ah, that makes good sense. And what is play, but the learning tool of the young?

    My own father, despite his having some of the dull adult grimness I've mentioned, common for his generation, also had a curiosity to learn until the day he died at 85. He always had questions, always wanted to learn, always had a perpetual curiosity about Life that I continue to admire. He never closed his mind to new ideas, If I have any of that myself, I attribute it to him.
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    Jan 20, 2010 8:31 PM GMT
    I've notice some people start to become old acting and all serious at about 45 others it never happens too. Some people keep moving with the times, and other people it seems their 30s was the best time in their lives, and they never move from that mind set. So when they were 30 and homosexuality was wrong, it will always be wrong.

    My Gran mama, is 92, and she is still a big kid,and all the youth in her chuch just love her as I do. I myself am still a dag, and most of the old enjoy seeing my big smile, and my lightheartedness, even the grumpy old nuns I care for from time to time. But some people just don't deal with not being young anymore either.

    I know I'm never going to be 70 so it's not really an issue for me, or in my mind set, of becoming old; I'll be gone with the wind before that comes to pass.
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    Jan 20, 2010 10:46 PM GMT
    I think I would die of embarrassment if I found out people where somehow watching how inane we act at home, chasing each other around the apartment, putting the tea cozy on our head, reenacting silly scenes from films with the most impromptu of props, one of us pretending to have been possessed by a monster, and the list goes on and on.

    There is one thing my hubby is too ticklish to bear and I love to threaten to do it to him while he cries for help through his laughter. And, of course, sometimes that wrestling turns into... other activities. icon_wink.gif
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    Jan 21, 2010 12:01 AM GMT
    CuriousJockAZ saidI think "silly" and "old" fit together quite nicely icon_lol.gif

    Leave it to you to mock older gay men... icon_razz.gif
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    Jan 21, 2010 12:25 AM GMT

    “One ought to hold on to one's heart; for if one lets it go, one soon loses control of the head too.”

    Friedrich Nietzsche

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    Jan 22, 2010 6:55 PM GMT
    Hmmm.....icon_idea.gif
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    Jan 22, 2010 7:00 PM GMT
    I am no spring chicken but l am still silly as you call it?
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    Jan 22, 2010 7:08 PM GMT
    drypin saidI think I would die of embarrassment if I found out people where somehow watching how inane we act at home, chasing each other around the apartment, putting the tea cozy on our head, reenacting silly scenes from films with the most impromptu of props, one of us pretending to have been possessed by a monster, and the list goes on and on.

    There is one thing my hubby is too ticklish to bear and I love to threaten to do it to him while he cries for help through his laughter. And, of course, sometimes that wrestling turns into... other activities. icon_wink.gif



    Just the fact that you have a tea cozy is SO CUTE. Forget that you put it on your head.

    Sounds like my house (except for the tea cozy part, we don't have one of those)...


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    Jan 22, 2010 7:20 PM GMT
    The day I stop laughing at myself because I have done something silly is the day I that I'm old. Singing around my apt with my head scarf tied on my head and platics gloves on while I'm cleaning with shorts on and shirtless.icon_lol.gificon_lol.gificon_lol.gificon_lol.gif