Getting what I want and wanting what I get...

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    Jan 23, 2010 10:37 PM GMT
    This afternoon, I was spending some quality time with the dogs, and watching some TV with them. And of all things, the P90X infomercial comes on TV, and I found myself watching it again with the same amount of hope that I had when I was a person who didn't own the DVDs. It's so weird to me that even today when I am already well into this program that I can see those infomercials and think "What if that were me..." The truth is that it is me... I'm becoming a part of that now. But the trouble is that even though I am doing this and loving it, my mind keeps insisting that I can't believe everything I see on TV... or even on these videos! Even so, I just would love to love the results that I get as much as the people on the dumb infomercials appear to do. I know that when I started this program I was not terribly out of shape, and I was never ashamed of the way that I looked (nor had I any reason to be). But boy it sure would be nice to have that kind of evidence (at least for myself) to see that commitment paid off and paid off handsomely.

    I keep thinking back to the early days of my sobriety, over 13 years ago... I was 21 years old and had such a bad attitude at meetings. I'm lucky that anything anyone had to say to me got through to me at all! Back then, I was always afraid that someone was going to tell me that I was too young to have it.... that I really needed to go back out there and suffer some more with my addiction before I was really ready to get this. That fear always drove me to work harder in my sobriety. Yet even as negative as I was back then (and as driven to succeed as I was in spite of my bad attitude), I was still hopeful in the same kind of way that I am now. I really wanted to be able to laugh at stuff that had happened in my past like I saw other people in meetings doing, and I really wanted my painful past to become the kind of experience, strength, and hope that others were sharing with me. And yes it did eventually happen, but it took a lot of time and effort. And although I know that this is not exactly the same thing, in a weird way it is... for some stupid reason, I keep thinking that the benefits won't be mine to reap or that I won't "get what I am promised for playing the game." And yet it's driving me to keep at it. I know that's a rather selfish attitude, but hey... I'm trying to be honest.

    It's moments like this that I kinda wish I had a "P90X sponsor" the way I have one to "coach me" in my sobriety. Hell, there are times I wish I could talk to Mr. Horton himself and ask him just one little question: "I'll still want what I have and be happy with it when I am done, right?"

    I hope a P90X graduate somewhere reads this and knows what I am talking about... hell even a non-P90X person's input is fine. If you're out there and you have something to say, please say it.

    Thanks for reading this rather long-winded and shameless request for a pat on the back, guys.... I appreciate it.
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    Jan 24, 2010 1:06 AM GMT
    Ok - from a Fitness Instructors point of view: I completely understand where you are coming from. SO many times students will attend class for a few weeks or maybe even a month and want instant gratification/results. Because this doesn't happen overnight many times they will get discouraged become disappointed and not return.
    I know from my own experience both as a former student and now instructor that it does take time for these changes to develop. Mentally you want to look in the mirror and see it, but physically it can be at least 4-6 weeks to notice those overall changes. Sometimes it may even be a full two months before any significant changes appear.
    Like any daily task we perform good health and exercise has to become more of a learned habit that incorporates into our daily lives. Commitment, determination, motivation, and the self realization of reaching small weekly or even monthly attainable goals will be the component to its success. It will happen - how could it not if you are motivated each day to invest in yourself. The end results will be based not only on your physical strength, but how mentally you reached each of these goals you set out to accomplish.
    I can't tell you that you may or may not look like the people in the infomercials. Remember because they are the "marketing" behind this program they have to be presented in the best possible form. We don't have their perfect lighting, and the touch ups here and there after editing in order to appeal to the buying public. What I can tell you is that your end results if nothing else will provide you with increased strength gains, beneficial knowledge of continued improved health, and the accomplishment of a commitment and investment in yourself.
    Hope this bit of information will help you. icon_smile.gif
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    Jan 24, 2010 2:41 AM GMT
    Just take it one day at a time Sahem! I am sure with your determination and discipline that the results you will earn will be great!!! icon_biggrin.gif
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    Jan 24, 2010 3:33 AM GMT
    I know in my case it's a matter of me not being able to see results in the mirror as easily as others see them. I think it has to do with the familiarity of seeing your reflection everyday you just don't notice as easily as someone who only see's you sporadically. The lighting plays a big factor in it as well. Look at yourself in a mirror at home with the lighting more subdued or casting shadows and you'll see a big difference.
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    Jan 24, 2010 4:11 PM GMT
    Mr. Horton says "Do your best an forget the rest..." in just about every video of the P90X series. I'm starting to realize "the rest" in my case are all those mental gymnastics I was putting myself through last night about the infomercials.

    Thanks again for "listening."