Sparkycat saidI'm beginning to feel I'm living a rather empty existence and not a life that matters. I need to make changes but am not sure what to do. How do you define living a life that matters? What is it about your life that allow you to feel it matters and has value? Specifics rather than broad generalizations will be appreciated.
I doubt I'm going to give you a good answer, but I'll try anyways. I find myself asking this question to myself all the time. And it is not an easy answer.
Give yourself a goal you would like to achieve. I wanted to go to school for a degree in English. It took my two years of hard work, and I recently graduated with my BA. Those were seriously some of the best years I've had. I recently moved back home, and realized why I moved away in the first place.
My next goal is to get published, anything, something at all, and this June I'll have a piece of non-fiction published in a gay anthology book. In the meantime, I have no job, and I do nothing all day.
I've been using this time to rest, though I "should be looking for a job." I need the rest time. My next goal is to get into graduate school for creative writing, and by golly, I'm working on it.
I have my bad days where I feel like I'm worthless, but that passes. Find something you love to do, something you always wished you'd done and do it. Meet new people, get out of the daily routine, and revitalize yourself. Change can have miraculous benefits on you.
Hope you get to find something to make you're life feel meaningful.
PS Life is how you see it. Look at everything with new eyes, and you'll see that everything is different.