JJ84 saidI've been depressed for so long and each day has only gotten worse. I thought I met someone, but it turned out to be nothing. I've never had anyone to just confide in. Being not out, I've isolated myself from everone in my life, to the point of having nothing, no one. What's the point of continuing when you're so mentally, physically, and emotionally depleted?
If you feel more it's all more than you can deal with and can't seem to find a more positive outcome, find a friend, or call a hotline.
Couple of things you should know:
Few things in life a permanent.
Even if you don't work at it, things will change. More, if you do.
If you're on the pity pot, and feeling sorry for yourself, and being all whiney, and self-centered, as you are now, go to a homeless shelter, ride the city bus, view video of the folks in Haiti. Your life is good. You have a roof over your head; food to eat; a shower; an internet connection; folks to whine to.
Perspective is everything.
If you don't like how things are, whether it's feeling like you have to hide your face, or that your life sucks, etc., you need to start taking active steps to change your life so that you don't feel that way.
Of course, if you go kill yourself, it's over, and, of course, you've shown you don't have the skills, desire, focus, discipline, to do whatever it is you need to do to change things. Rather a cowardly thing, but, natural selection at work, I suppose.