Whats your hot memory of youth that made you realize you were gay?

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    Jan 21, 2008 12:25 PM GMT
    I used to go the this camp on the James River for a week at a time during the summer. We stayed in cabins and each cabin had a leader all segregated by sex of course. The boys on one side of the island and the girls on the other. The camp was for like 10-15 year olds and etc. I think I was 11 or 12 at the time.

    The team leaders were usually high school or college kids working there during the summer. One summer while I was attending I walked into the cabin and there he stood...the most beautiful man that I had ever seen. Short wavey hair, beautiful tan skin, great cut athletic build, and a beautiful smile...I knew I could not be taking a shower when he would be around or it would be instant woody!!!

    He would sneak out at night to go see his girlfiend that was also a leader. One night as I lay awake watching him...

    He got up and by the moonlight coming into the window I watched him totally undress and was in awe of his body. Beautifully sculpted in everyway..chest, arms, abs and legs. Had a beautiful "everything". Just the right amount of hair everywhere...to me he was perfection.

    I watched as he got dressed and left. There were many things in my life growing up that told me I was gay, even as a very young child. But after this night I knew it was not a phase, it would never go away...the desire to have and be the man I had just seen by the moonlight naked, beautiful and inspiring.
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    Jan 21, 2008 5:58 PM GMT
    When I was in 8th grade, so 13 yo, I remember standing out the school door waiting for it to be unlocked. Also out there were a pair of twin boys...very cute.

    I didnt know what homosexual or gay was. But I can remember thinking how I wish I could have a boy friend who never went away.

    So I guess that was my first stirrings of gay feelings.
  • cowboyathlete

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    Jan 21, 2008 7:03 PM GMT
    Gym showers in middle school, his name was Tom, and something about his build and his bush fascinated the hell out of me.
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    Jan 21, 2008 9:04 PM GMT
    Somewhere between the age of 8-10 I got my first male swim instructor (they had all previously been females). He was twenty-something, a life guard as well, and in all honesty I don't remember how he looked like save for having a strong jaw and a swimmer's build.

    We practicing dives and he would be there to help us up to the surface. I dove in and in a frantic attempt to get to the surface, I inadvertently grabbed his groin area (and probably hurt the poor guy). Needless to say there was an awkward moment when I reached the surface, and he said insincerely with an embarrassed (perturbed? painful?) look on his face "you got me in the gut there, buddy".

    From then on I was fascinated with him, which grew into an attraction not only to him but to the male gender, winning me a one-way ticket to Gayville.
  • GQjock

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    Jan 21, 2008 10:23 PM GMT
    I remember I couldn't have been more than like 5 or 6
    my dad brought me into one of those open showers at a beach club
    I didn't even know what sex was but I knew that there was somethin about it that I liked icon_cool.gif
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    Jan 22, 2008 3:08 AM GMT
    I was four years old. At daycare I watched Mary Poppins all day long. When my mother came to pick me up later that day I excitedly ran up to her and said "Mommy, I know what I want to be when I grow up!"
    "What dear?" she indulgently replied
    "I want to be a woman!" I can't remember her expression. But I am sure it was nothing short of aghast horror.

    And while I didn't grow up into a woman, I can't say she was particularly surprised when I told her I was gay years later.
  • helium

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    Jan 22, 2008 7:43 PM GMT
    I was around 12-13 and in Catholic school at the time. So I was in my gym class changing into my gym uniform and I saw one of the guys with his shirt and shorts off. I saw him and was staring at his body for awhile without the other guys noticing me. That was hot. Then in high school, this one guy and I were jokingly pretending to be in a relationship with each other but to me it felt somewhat real. That's what made me think that I was joining the Gay Army.
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    Jan 25, 2008 11:57 AM GMT
    drawing pictures of hot naked men...

    and yes, they were very well drawn even for an 11 year old. LOL I'm a born artist.
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    Jan 25, 2008 10:48 PM GMT
    I was a young kid (probably only 6 or 7) at a church picnic and I remember there was a hot young father sitting on the ground near me, and i could see his hairy legs go up his shorts....... and i was immensely turned on.
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    Jan 30, 2008 5:32 AM GMT
    I knew I had some attraction to guys, especially naked guys as far back as I can remember.
    I remember a baby sitter who made us go to be early and would have her boyfriend over and they would play in our living room. I would sneak out of my room and stealthily crawl in and watch them. Somehow I really envied my babysitter.
    I had my first experience with another kid on my baseball team, we were eleven at the time.
    We went to my house after practice and we always had to pee. We did it together, sword fighting with the streams and just playing. My parents wouldn't be home for hours.
    As the summer progressed we developed erections after peeing and then explored one another and by the end of the season we had a torrid affair. We even settled into top and bottom, I being the bottom didn't experience ejaculation like he did. The first time he had an orgasm I thought he was going to die. I was also quite suprised when his cum would leak into my underwear, I didn't know what it was.
    We drifted apart when school started. I enjoyed sex so much I met and enjoyed the company of some older teenagers (boys of course). Then when I found out that being queer is really bad and that God hates queers, I tried to go straight, which was a disaster.

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    Feb 10, 2008 6:53 AM GMT
    In retrospect, I remember wanting to play doctor with other little boys, but never with the girls.
    And it took me 40 years to resolve all that. Geez!
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    Feb 11, 2008 10:00 AM GMT
    i remember in 3rd grade i drow 2 naked men with shlogs that go to their knees on one of my books icon_lol.gif
    i also remember asking my mother if men can marry, i knew i liked boys i was often looking at muscular men at the beach but i didn't know that it's taboo
    when my friends started getting intrested in girls i didn't realize i'm gay i thought i'll like them when i grow older even thou i was the first one to hit puberty and i'm the youngest in my group.
    then i remember i was flipping a magazine at my grandmothers house when i stumbleed on an article about homosexuality, i freaked out when i read it and went throu it like 10 time and the pieces started falling togther , then like most gay guys i stoped at denial station for some time befor arriving at the fantabelous parade city.
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    Feb 11, 2008 4:42 PM GMT
    I was 16, away from home for the first time and in London. I loved riding up and down the escalators at the tube stations and looking at the ads with male models - especially the underwear ads.
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    Feb 11, 2008 6:42 PM GMT
    Let’s see, I came out last year after finally deciding to accept who I am. But there were things that were tells that told me and prepared my parents. (In fact, when I told them, they actually told me they wished I would have come out sooner.)

    My personal tells:
    I had a crush on Tommy, the white Power Ranger when I was younger. I kept wanting him to treat me the way he treated Kimberly.

    I saw a life guard fully naked in the boy’s locker room as he was changing. I couldn't look away.

    When my parents had me take swimming lessons, I was in love with my swim teacher . . . who also was a life guard.

    When I was pulled out and under from the rip tides out in the ocean, a life guard came out to my rescue. Even though I was drowning, I was just so happy and in Heaven that I was in his arms.

    (Typing this is making me realize how much I just love Life Guards)

    What prepared my parents:
    I wanted to be and be with Atreu from the Never Ending Story.

    I got too happy when Batman and Robin got dressed in their suits in the movies.

    When Uma Thurman was Poison Ivy, I didn't want her, I wanted to BE her. I also wanted her thermal dust to use.

    And of course, there is so much more.
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    Feb 11, 2008 7:56 PM GMT
    I don't really remember exactly when I knew i liked guys. I think I was watching TV and I would stop at stations about health, sometimes wrestling because there was something about guys' bodies I liked. Then puberty hit and, well... yeah.

    It was funny I remember asking my mom, "How do you know if you're gay" when I was about 12-13. When I came out to her a couple of years ago she said she doesn't remember me asking that, how could a parent no remember that sort of question from their child?!
  • maximumrisk

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    Feb 11, 2008 10:12 PM GMT
    I always suspected that there was something odd when I watched Wrestling and got a boner. Especially Bill Goldberg got my pulse up. I was 7 or 8 Years then.
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    Feb 11, 2008 10:13 PM GMT
    when i was too young to know: brad pitt shirtless...made me feel uncomfortable in the pants area...
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    Feb 12, 2008 7:16 AM GMT
    TiggerHeightI had a crush on Tommy, the white Power Ranger when I was younger. I kept wanting him to treat me the way he treated Kimberly.


    Funny... I never had a crush on Tommy. I was head over heels for Jason. icon_lol.gif
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    Feb 27, 2008 3:11 AM GMT
    My uncle had the International Male and Playboy's in his bathroom. I found myself always looking through IM. The clothes were ugly but the underwear and the guys were hot.
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    Feb 27, 2008 3:43 AM GMT
    When I was in Grade 7 I hit puberty and immediately developed crushes on 3 guys in Grade 8. I didn't know what it was, until I asked a classmate what "faggot" meant. He told me it was slang for a homosexual. I said "okay", thinking to myself, "what is a homosexual?"icon_question.gif

    So I approached my kind sister, not the other one that told me there was no Santa Claus and how babies are made, but the older nicer one. I asked her what is a homosexual? I can just imagine what was going through her mind. She said it is boys who like other boys the way most boys like girls. Then I thought "oh no that is meicon_eek.gif" My life was never the same from that day on.
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    Feb 28, 2008 4:43 AM GMT
    One of the things from my childhood that makes me realize that I am gay was that when I was looking through some of my mom's magazines, as I always did, I would usually stare at the shirtless guys. One specific example was when there was an add containing a series of mean in thongs. I just kept on turning back to that page, despite the fact that I didn't know why since this was sometime before grade 7.
  • shoelessj

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    Feb 28, 2008 7:35 AM GMT
    looking at the pictures of bobby orr my sister had on her bedroom wall. geez, i couldn't have been more than 12 at the time.
  • PRDGUY

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    Feb 28, 2008 10:53 AM GMT
    maximumrisk saidI always suspected that there was something odd when I watched Wrestling and got a boner. Especially Bill Goldberg got my pulse up. I was 7 or 8 Years then.



    Not from watching wrestling, but always got hard doing it... as far back as I remember. Was so relieved later that I was not he only one, and this led to years and years of 'play.' Many of my buds, most who were straight, also got raging boners as well. Then, we did not think of it as a gay thing, but just a 'guy thing,' similar to circle jerks and mutual jerks. One of the advantages of growing up in a walled/ gated progressive community I guess.

    In college, as in fraternity life, although I dated and had sex often with the opposite sex, I came to slowly realize that guys do it better as most of my brothers in KA also got hard when we wrassled [redneckese for wresting/ playing around], but then again we had many same sex sexual activities going on-

    as the old saying goes, who better knows to operate your 'equipment' better than one who has the same model!
  • HndsmKansan

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    Feb 28, 2008 1:54 PM GMT
    When the "Dole banana" came into play, that should have been a clue for me.