....My Letter of Forgiveness & Moving On...

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    Apr 03, 2010 9:55 PM GMT
    To Who It May Concern,

    I just want to make a point very clear to you. Black, white, gay, bi, straight, or whatever nationality/sexual orientation you are or choose to be, listen up because when you play with fire, you are going to get burned.

    Now whether you be cool about it or come out of a bag on me, it really doesn't make any difference to me. There is only going to be a few selective curse words in it, so keep in mind, I will say what's on my mind & if you don't like it, then it's your problem. I will break it down for you in what I mean:

    It's guys like you that give me a reason to have high standards and expectations, along with the reason to be stuck up towards you. I have TRIED, over the years, to overlook your childish behaviour & your trifling, sorry ass ways. It seems the more I try, the more things stay the same. You expect everyone to just "put up with it" & you don't realise the only person ending up alone with your mess is the person who started it: YOU. Whenever I, or anyone else is willing to give you what is NOW considered a privilege, you won't give me or anyone else the chance to put it behind them. You play the same games & you think it's cute; you just don't realise the concept of what goes around, comes around. And when it does, I am really never one to bear any sympathy for you. There are so many good guys out there but at the same, I am not willing to just "give you/them a chance", therefore, you/they have to earn it. The only thing I ever ask of you is that you treat me the way you want to be treated & you look at me like it's so high & mighty. So if you feel that's too much to ask for, and in turn, it "fucks with your manhood", then please step to the side & let a REAL man do your job. I have learned that a leopard's spots may fade, but they never change.

    To all of the guys I've dated: you taught me some very valuable lessons; the ones who parted with me amiably, I get along with you because it's what I choose to do;
    To those I've talked to & tried to get to know: Keep in mind, everyone is entitled to change their mind on who they want to date, just keep in mind, I know that I was raised with some respect to speak to those who choose to speak.
    If you don't speak to me, then that's cool. Just so you know, I was raised with, as well as, taught to have some manners about myself in public.

    To all of those who are grown enough to know better: I'm sure somewhere along the lines of growing up, you were taught to have some maturity about yourselves. I've managed to grow up & have some sense to leave the high school games and drama behind, I just will not make the effort to keep trying with you when all you're going to do is kick me in the teeth. I remember when you were cool with me, when you got your way & as long as you did, everything was cool. When I started growing a backbone, the wrong kind of words toward me came out of your mouth & therefore, you showed your true colours. But alas, that situation alone is something I choose not to forget. You know, I could do what you do when it comes to playing games & exhibiting childish behaviour but then I realise that I would become the one thing that begin to despise over time: YOU. When it's all said & done, I've tried to overlook it but since you won't let me, I can't fuck wit ya. in all due saying:

    I forgive you, I'm just not gonna make the time to fuck with you or put up with your behavior. So to all of you silly ass boys out there, you know who you are, because a good handful of you are out there, do not get upset when I state what I look for in a man because if you cannot deliver your word like a man, then you can step off like the scared little kid that you are. I will gladly tell it to you like it is & if you want to call me bitter, fed up, stuck up, or whatever hleps you sleep at night, gladly take your copout to save face in admitting that you're not man enough to deliver. A man's word is as good as his bond & if you break it, you might as well keep on moving. Because of all the shit I've seen gay men put one another through, as well as straight men put women through, there is a song by R. Kelly called When A Woman's Fed Up, it means what it means & best believe, it works on both sides of the fence. You can do the dirt all you want but when it comes down to someone putting their foot down, they can keep an eye on you and wear themselves out or find someone else to eat your food, wear your clothes, pay your bills, etc, etc. I know, for a fact, that if I had to choose being by myself and taking care of things or you with the drama and the bullshit, you can best believe you will get an answer that is guaranteed to break your face in ½. I have someone new & he treats me better than you ever could or would in this lifetime, or the next. I am never one to make a decent man pay for the mistakes of some sorry excuse of a man who chooses to make or have an excuse behind everything he does. That's not my cup of tea & therefore, it keeps you in power over me.

    In case you missed, I said I forgive you, I just won't fuck with you.
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    Apr 03, 2010 10:36 PM GMT
    So it didn't work out. Not gonna date him anymore. Needed to get that off your chest. That's good to hear...
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    Apr 03, 2010 10:37 PM GMT
    I'm sorry. Hopefully you will forgive me in time.
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    Apr 04, 2010 12:34 AM GMT
    no, it isn't about dating him anymore...its about the guys I've given chances to and their expecting me to just deal with their behaviour. I just made the point clear for a lot of guys who choose to act their age according to their shoe size, instead of acting their age according to the year they were brought into this world.
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    Apr 04, 2010 1:17 AM GMT
    I could understand how you feel about guys like that! but you know the only way you get that behind you is to find closure. Don't waste your time venting of guys or relationships from the past, when you already have someone in your present to love and be loved! if you keep reliving those unpleasant memories and even the thought of the guys it will eventually get on the way of your current relationship. Buddy just enjoy what you have and move on!!


    Leandro
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    Apr 04, 2010 10:12 AM GMT
    OMG yet another drama queen. Just go away.
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    Apr 05, 2010 6:01 PM GMT
    Sparkycat saidOMG yet another drama queen. Just go away.


    I just LOVE the smell of a grown man doing what he does best, COPOUT to save himself some face instead of somewhat agree on where I'm coming from.
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    Apr 05, 2010 6:05 PM GMT
    BadByMyself saidno, it isn't about dating him anymore...its about the guys I've given chances to and their expecting me to just deal with their behaviour. I just made the point clear for a lot of guys who choose to act their age according to their shoe size, instead of acting their age according to the year they were brought into this world.
    Well whatever you had to type, I'm glad you got it out.