AlexGuess saidI was physically attacked by my ex boyfriend, and lets not talk about all the emotional attacks he did too,
Alex, what you experienced is called Domestic Abuse. Specifically, you were subjected to physical violence and psychological abuse.
I can understand what happened to you, because I have also been a victim of Domestic Abuse. I never thought it could happen to me. I'm well educated. I'm 6'1 male and a pretty strong guy with an "alpha" presence. My abuser was 5'5, 125lbs and on disability. Neither I, nor my abuser "fit" the stereotypical profile of domestic abuse.
The abuser wants control over you and will do anything they can to keep you under control.
If you still feel like you are under threat from this abuser, I strongly advise you to seek assistance from a not-for-profit domestic abuse organization. I did. It's a long story.
In the end, I was able to get a permanent restraining order against my abuser and I have not heard from him since. This was back in September 2007.
Please feel free to contact me if you would like more information about my experience, or what you can do to free yourself from further domestic abuse.
Aloha and Be Well!