Im gay but dont like to suck dic???

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    Apr 19, 2010 12:45 AM GMT
    I will be 40 years old three years from now and im still in the closet.
    During my teenager time I have my first experience mutual jerk off with my straight best friend with out physical contact. It was very exciting moment of my life and I realize that im really gay. I want to try it again but i never have opportunity to have second chance to try it . Im really eager to explore my sexuality and to live my life what makes me happy but something holding me back, Im so scared to try it again. So decide to stay cool and wait that someday I will find the right guy to have fun and do things thats what right for me. Because im so busy finishing my school and now im working so hard, finally I decide to explore the missing part of fun of my life. This is what happened to me now, someone flirt with me and first I kinda ignore him because his married person , he invite me for drinks but I refuse to go out with him and following day he give some attitude towards with me for not going out with him, I admit I have special feelings to him and im enjoying to talking him because he is so charming, nice guy , with great taste and quality personality and highly respected man in the company, my feelings about him just normal person that i know him like someone in the office with great personality period. Well when he try to flirt with me, I ask myself maybe its now true he is not flirting me so I try to invite him for drinks, so we have good conversation and we finally reveal each other, I told him im not straight guy and he told me he is Bi, so all my conclusion was true, so anyway i lose myself a little bit, try to face the reality,after our nice conversation I knew it theres something fun need be done, I initiate the first moved and it was not successful, I ask him why, he told me he is married , I was wrong then and I talk to him and asking for apology. Apology was accepted after that incident we still hangout once in awhile. Finally something change , I ask him one more time what do you want, he responsed I want to su?? your di?? and I happened right away.After that I talk to him if i can do it too, he said no and I said why and he response coz I married, after the long conversation he give me chance to do it, finally the first blow job in my life and I kinda like it.Now I decide to try one more but it didnt happened anymore.My question is since I already try blow somebody , my problem righ now t i dont want to blow anybody, I dont suck di???, excep him I do that because I know him he is super clean person and I know him pretty well. My question is WHY IM SO SCARED TO SUCK DI????. is this normal to gay person.
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    Apr 19, 2010 1:16 AM GMT
    Ok, first let me get this straight, you are two score minus three years old. Ok, I got it now. ... icon_rolleyes.gif

    It sounds like you are afraid of getting a sexually tranmitted disease from sucking other di (the organ that dares not say its name apparently). Dear heart, nobody on here is going to be able to guarantee you that you might not get a STD from somebody else. If you get intimate, things can be communicated. You have take some time to get to know the other person before you get intimate. Meeting people thru friends is a good way to know the type of people you are meeting. But eventually, you just have take the chance. Life is full of chances. Or just stay in the closet and you will be safe...well, safe from STDs.
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    Apr 19, 2010 11:36 AM GMT
    Thanks man! U have good points .