Apr 29, 2010 12:22 AM GMT
I fell for a guy within a month of being with him. Guy said he was seeing other guys, and I was at the top, so I wanted to win him over. But when later told me that my moods and negativity were too much for him but he was willing to try harder until something could be resolved. I said ok. It wasn't until the end when he told me he had been seeing other guys on the side and that his friends didn't even like; though they still didn't know, that I decided to let him go. At one point he told me that my instability was making it difficult for him. So I decided at our last encounter at a downtown barhop filled with lots of intensity that if he was bothered by me anymore that I'd let him go so I knew that even though I just found out I was FALLING for him=), the fact that my instability and affection toward made me sensitive towards what would really make him happy. So I pushed him away and broke his heart. I've been crying, and am right now cause of my decision. I tried texting him a couple times in the several days, but have gotten no response. I don't even know what to do with myself. I want to go to where he's at and talk to him, but fear only that he is done with me completely. I need advice. I need someone to relate to one this, and I need to know what the RIGHT thing to do is, so I don't fuck this up any more.