May 12, 2010 6:53 PM GMT
I just joined this great site although I have lurked here for a few weeks as an outside observer and after reading some awesome forum posts I'm hoping for some helpful advice from members here. I have been in a monogamous relationship for the last 21 years and as it progressed my partner has become more and more abusive to me both mentally and physically and I feel totally trapped and can't get out. I am beyond miserable at this point and as I live in a small community in the south with no gay support groups or anywhere to turn to for help I just need to vent a little here and ask for some help and advice. The abuse is more mental than physical but I have been hit and knocked around several times recently and the verbal abuse has really escalated in the last couple of years. Even though I am the main income provider (90% to 10%) I am unable on my small salary to save enough money to even move away. We live paycheck to paycheck so its tough. We have two cars but both are in my partners name and the least little thing I do that he thinks is wrong he threatens to take the car I use away from me. If he did that I couldn't get to work as public transportation here is non existent and taxis are cost prohibitive from where I live to where I work. I pay all the bills out of my checks except for car insurance which he pays. I could go on and on with much detail but I'd really like to just talk with someone who can help me find a way out. PLEASE someone talk to me and help me figure out how to work my way out of this.