Four kids in my daughter's high school committed suicide in the same year. One of them was my neighbor's daughter and a very good friend of my daughter. Her twin brother remains a very good friend of my son's and I think of hard it must be for him even though it was over 10 years ago. It was a tough year and certainly a sad one at that. The teenage years can be very tough on kids!
My best friend chose to end her life about 6 years ago. It hurt for a long time, but I'm at peace with her decision now.
Another friend that I grew up with also chose to end her life last year. It was shocking to everyone, because we never knew about her struggle with depression. Unfortunately though I skipped her funeral, because it brought up too many feelings about my best friend Rienne's death.
I had a cousin who hanged himself back in 2000. We weren't close but it still affected the whole family. We'll never really know why he did it but there was speculation that he was gay and couldn't deal with it. He had a wife but their marriage was dissolving. Very sad because he was a good person.
A few of my mom's former co-workers have killed themselves, one by overdosing on pills and then drowning himself, the other by hanging. They were both silently suffering from depression.
My boyfriend had a really good friend that killed himself a few years ago.
Hey, it's a morbid topic but unfortunately it's very real and exists.
Yes, one of my business partners last year. Complicated situation. I was actually one of the more positive elements of her life, so I felt sad, obviously, but not guilt. And my focus since her death has been the success of her business dream.
In high school, my best friend and I had a mutual friend who attempted suicide by jumping off a bridge onto the highway. The absolute amazing thing about is that she survived and returned to school two weeks later wearing only a neck brace!
It remains a mystery to both of us why she attempted suicide. We didn't have the slightest clue that she was so troubled. Neither of us has seen her since high school, so who knows if she's still around or not.
I've known more than a few. Despondency is no good reason to consider it, unless you are facing terminal conditions. Even there, communication is key. It's so important to love yourself enough to work thru things and find help if you can't. The impact is on the people you love as well as yourself.
The last suicide i knew about was a young man who worked in the local store. He threw himself over a bridge on July 4. Being gay myself, and having been a despondent teen and young adult, i always suspect sexual orientation issues but realize everyone has different problems too.
I only knew this kid from afar but he seemed sweet and deserving of a good life. I know his boss was distraught, and he left a twin brother i understand. I only wish he'd have found a person to steer him onto a better path or given himself some time and space. I also regret losing my best friend in college and my cousin. When you can return from the depths tho it can help everyone around you.
The end of my 8th grade in middle school right when summer started. I had known her since about 1st grade as we had many of the same teachers. I had always been very friendly to her but she was what one would consider quiet and to herself. Her parents were both murdered when she was a kid, and she then lived with her grandparents. After their death she expressed herself by dressing in black and appearing Goth/Emo. She was made fun of sometimes but it never seemed to be that extreme. She hung herself the day after the school year ended. I believe that it wasn't us students around her that caused it but more of the pains of her family. It's hard because you look back wanting to remember if you did anything to provoke it or did anything to maybe stop it. I won't understand suicide and won't judge those that have done it because I don't know what that pain feels like and I don't know that feeling of being alone.
Yes my former roommate and BF shot himself after a fight with his lover. I was not shocked because they had a very toxic relationship and he was being treated for depression. I'm glad he is finally at peace and nolonger in pain. I do miss him a lot!
I've dealt with it twice. That is two more than anyone one person should have to deal with in a life time.
The first one was a fellow high school friend and you could say bullying had a part to play in him ending his life. He OD'd on his medicine. I don't quit remember what ailment he had.
The second suicide I dealt with was a fell comrade while I was in the military up here in Alaska. He purchased a gun on base at the BX and then shot himself in his car in the BX parking lot. He had just come back from a deployment and as soon as he gets back he learns that his wife of 3 years has been cheating on him and then serves him with divorce papers. To make matters worse he had already dealt with the dying of his father from cancer a few months before his deployment. The incident shocked the base.
In both case I knew them both and we hung out. I never say the signs. I would always if they wanted to talk about stuff and I would get the same answer "I'm ok." I never thought to push the question any further and it sorta weighs on you when you deal with stuff like this. You always wonder "What if?"
I did that for awhile when I dealt with the my buddy in high school. I asked myself why hadn't I noticed anything wrong. How come I couldn't help him. Had I paid more attention to him I could've talked him down.
For my fellow comrade, I feel bad because because I left the door open for him to talk to me about anything at any time. he never used it and I wonder if it's because he didn't secure talking to me specifically about some stuff. We were in different squadrons and worked different shifts but a group of us always managed to get together and hang. It really hit home when the base got put on lock down and then we had a base meeting about the incident. I nearly collapsed because I was like "I just saw him yesterday and he was fine."
It hurts when you don't notice someone is hurting and going through something serious. It hurts even more when you learn of it and you realize how helpless you were because you didn't know at the time.
As a person who dealt with depression for year it's not something I take lightly and for those of you whoever feel close to ending I urge you to stop and think about what you are doing and who you might be hurting in process. You aren't the only one who suffers.
The first suicide I was aware of at about age 12 was a friend's father. The father was despondent because he had been embezzling at his company and knew it was all going to come out soon, so he chose to die in his car while parked in the garage - carbon monoxide poisoning.
Another person used the same method. She was in her 60's and had just been told by her husband that he wanted a divorce. She put her dogs in her car and they all went to sleep in her garage.
An older man we knew shot himself after receiving bad health news.
I knew of two older couples who decided to do the murder-suicide solution when they learned of bad health news. Both couples did it at home - one couple used a gun, and the other took pills and sat on a sofa together.
I felt badly for the pain in each case. It takes courage to face tough situations in life, and people sometimes just want out, unable to see anything good coming their way.
I have had three friends and one ex commit suicide. There reasons where different each time depression, disease, or what ever. I try not to judge or hate those who have, mostly because at one point I was going to a long time ago. Everyone has there reasons but the effect it has on those who are left behind is great and for that I know I can not ever go through it. The hardest thing a person can do is live, death is easy. If life were ment to be easy it wouldnt be worth while in the end. There is nothing and nobody that will beat you down and break you more than living, its getting back up and able to take the next hit that makes you the person you are.
My grandpa's wife, in December, a week before his birthday. Grandpa'd remarried to Nancy a few months after my grandmother died 12 years ago. She shot herself in their basement, and he found her.
A week before that I learned that my friend Sarah had taken her life a few weeks before Thanksgiving. I think it was a drug overdose. She'd been texting me about two weeks before Thanksgiving and then I didn't hear from her. She was troubled and was telling me she was putting pills in her alcohol. I checked on her after the last time she texted me this kind of thing, and she was okay. But then I didn't hear from her again.
Two people I was in therapy with killed themselves about 2 years ago. Not sure how. I think drug OD.
KApparition saidMy father committed suicide in 2001. It still haunts me to this day and I always wonder to myself if there was anything I could have done for him to help him.
It's pretty normal to wonder this.
The truth is, even if we did something different or were better in some way, it wouldn't have necessarily made things better. It might have made them go sooner.
Generally speaking for survivor's guilt It's a nice sentiment, but the person who is gone most likely wouldn't want you going through life with an ever-present feeling of self-punishment. Even if it ended badly and they killed themselves to say "fuck you" to the world.. Anger fades and at some point the punishment is fulfilled. Since they aren't around to forgive you themselves, you have to do it for them. And there's nothing wrong with doing that.
hyperionx saidWhat a grizzly thread. I'm curious why the the OP would start such a discussion?
Because it's therapeutic....I attempted to take my own life when I was 21, and now many years later am a psych nurse, those who come in with major depression, I can relate to. I know first hand how it feels to be so sad that I cannot imagine to live another day. Thank God for SSRIs they balanced my chemistry. Not saying that it's an end-all, it got me where I am today, I'm no longer on meds, and doing quite well. Suicide affects EVERYBODY and for a long time. It hurts.
She took 200 pills she took my father's heart meds he has serious heart issues She had tryed many thing's in the past
We had came to her aid 5 times pryor to this attempt We took her to doctors she refused to go in we tryed to trick her to go to the doctors
On jan 10,2012 I got a call from my mother she said hi she sounded odd I said can I call you back in 5 minutes she said whats wrong you can't talk to your own mother than hung up As always I called her back I said mom what's going on she said she was going to take a bath an go to bed I said to her you better not be doing anything to yourself she replyed It's to late I love you Douglas . my name she hung up I called my sister she went to her house found her passed out not responding She called 911 they took her to the hosptial After putting in a pacemake a heart pumd an artery baloon and to other operation my mother passed on Jan 12,2012
This has been a hollow hopeless life event this was the first person in my 41 years of life that has passed away And it was my best friend my Mother
Well to all of you late have lost someone close I can feel some of your pain.I had an old party buddy that commited suicide.We hung out alot but were'nt real close but his life was a bit crappy.He had crazily swung out on a rope swing to dive in to a local watering hole and hit a flat stone he did'nt see right under the water.He survived that but was paralyzed from the neck down(breathing,heart and all were still working but no other movement)that lasted for 6 yrs.Then he manged to get ahold of some of his party buds and managed to plan it out so they would all miss each other and oded on pills.I know wht he chose to do but I'm happy not to be one of them tricked into giving pills to do it.So now I remember him when I'm out having fun raise a glass and take a toke.I figure this is the best way to think/remember him.I do feel a little bad for not seeing him alot after the accident but I know I did'nt hide how he looked to me in his bed.In fact the last time I seen him he told me "You don't have to come over.I know it looks bad and I'm making you feel bad but get out of and don't come back"I left crying a bit not knowing to feel happy or sad.