Do you know anyone who has committed suicide?

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    Feb 10, 2012 5:47 AM GMT
    The little sister of a friend of mine. I wasn't too close to her. She was a beaming, wonderful person with a beautiful, if heavy, heart. I think she was only 18 or 19. Too good for this world, I suppose.
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    Feb 10, 2012 5:49 AM GMT
    one of my aunts. (mom's younger sister)
    we were not that close, but she did come and live with us for a while...

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    Feb 10, 2012 6:06 AM GMT
    danielvn saidMe. But I failed though. I took like 40 herbal sleeping pills and woke up the next morning completely paralyzed. I stayed like that for a week before I could even move my limbs. Thats why Im still here T_T It was not fun at all, I also ran away from home when I was in 12th grade too. These experiences actually helped me explore myself and realize how stupid I was back then. They've totally changed the way I think and made me who I am today icon_smile.gif

    Well, now that you stepped out for yourself; I will too.

    I tried to kill myself about 2 years ago. I was living an isolated life away from friends.... there was more here in greater detail, but I don't have the nerve to post it for you all to see. Though I'm sure you don't care enough to judge me for it in the first place.

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    Feb 10, 2012 6:28 AM GMT
    I had a friend shoot himself when we were in high school. He didn't die immediately, as he shot himself in the upper chest area. His younger sister found him bleeding out on his floor, and he died as they got him to the hospital.

    I was a senior and he was a junior..he had gone to our school, and that's how we became friends, but then had to transfer when he got kicked out of our school. He was always into trouble, but those of us who knew him, knew some of the things he was going through at home. This guy had a rough family life...his dad was pretty hard on him, all the the point of abuse, and his mom would just let it go on and act like everything was fine, so that their circle of friends would think that they were the perfect family with the perfect house and the perfect life.

    I think about him all the time, because it was one of those things where, even though we weren't the closest of friends, we could talk and I always felt like he was able to be really open with me. I'll never forget when a bunch of us talked to his dad after his death, and how he felt like it was all his fault. The thing is, which a few of us as his friends have since discussed, is that no one could blame his dad or anything, because it wasn't his fault, really, and you could feel the hurt that he was dealing with, and you could literally see the guilt on his face. I still see his sister from time to time, and we are friends on FB, and she seems to be dealing with things better now, but his parents still seem to be stuck in that moment. It's truly sad.
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    Feb 10, 2012 6:33 AM GMT
    ya - my friend's Mom committed suicide when we were in highschool...
    quite a harsh thing to experience
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    Feb 10, 2012 6:38 AM GMT
    yes, it was a very scary and enlightening experience..

    many months before it occurred, I was laying tarot cards for my friends.. just for fun, I was just joking around really.. but the cards came up with a disaster in the family for this one friend...

    I didnt think too much of it.. it was just a game.. many months later, we found out his dad committed suicide.. my sister actually saw him, found him, on the floor, gun and blood pouring out of his head...

    My friend left for his father's funeral, then.. a month after or so, I had a dream of this man, he came to me, asking me to talk to my friend, to tell my friend everything he had to say.

    I refused three times.. I thought it was just a dream, but it came back constantly, I finally told my friend about my dream.... he thought about it, asked me about what his dad had to say to him

    Then after my friend asked me that, it was as if someone was speaking to me, like his father was telling me how sorry he was, that he knew how everybody was feeling.. The father told me all manner of things about the family and all kinds of messages... for his mother, his father, his wife, his sons

    A week later, my friend called me to tell me he had told his family... .. that the family said that the messages fit exactly the last conversations they had been having with my friend's father around the time of his death... For each person individually... it was quite a relief to hear .. and a bit frightening to think... since then, Ive become to my friends like a medium of some sort, and they may ask me for help if they have trouble, to do readings for them

    Funny enough, i know some ppl will read this and scoff and think I am abusing people.. but I never ask for money.. my friends ask me... so yeah, up yours if you dont believe me
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    Aug 10, 2012 7:35 AM GMT
    Jack London committed suicide
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    Aug 10, 2012 7:52 AM GMT
    my uncle shot himself last september. though we weren't close, the effect his decison had on my aunt and cousins was and continues to be deep -to say the least. on the one hand, he'd been struggling with alcoholism for years so i could see how he thought there was no way out. on the other hand, the effects it has had on those closest to me and myself are rattling enough that i feel his decision has only solidified my decision to not act in a similar way no matter how hard life gets. in the end, suicide is selfish and, sadly, the last, hardest-hitting cry for help anyone can make. only kicker is, no one can help you once you're gone. R.I.P. Jeffrey Herndon
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    Aug 10, 2012 8:32 AM GMT
    One of my friends who I sat next to in jrotc hanged himself over a girl. I was shocked and extremely was only the 10th grade.
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    Aug 10, 2012 9:03 AM GMT
    A friend of a friend did it like 2 weeks ago. He's been cutting himself and his parents had told someone who tried to intervene that "He just does that and wants attention." Well finally he cut himself real real bad (I saw a pic of his wrists) and ended up getting stitched up in the emergency room. They gave him some pain killers and he went home and took all of them and finally was successful. The doctor who treated him said "Some people are just going to do it, its a question of when."

    Its a shame but the guy was a client of mine and had a real bad attitude, that he was better then everyone else. I guess that was a defense mechanism for a poor self-esteem. I on many occasion saw him cut down people for being overweight or "not up to his standards."

    According to the note, he'd moved down here with 2 friends who were together in a very volatile relationship and basically was in love with one of them and he got rejected. That and something about a ferret.

    I can totally understand wanting to check out if you get diagnosed with something terminal. I would never want to continue on if quality of life is gone or theres a chance I will become to burden to someone. I couldn't do it via violent means, I think I'd just like to go to sleep and not wake up.
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    Aug 10, 2012 9:32 AM GMT
    One of my mom's close friends shot himself in the head. She brought us (my brother and I) to check on him to see if he was alright, seeing he wasn't picking up any of her calls. He was supposed to go to rehab.

    Longs story short, we walked into a room with brains and blood all over the bed and walls. He was close to me like an uncle. The thought of it still makes me cringe, I was a freshmen in HS. I have his painting on my bedroom wall.
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    Aug 10, 2012 9:47 AM GMT
    trainhard2011 saidWho were they to you, and why did they do it? Did it affect you in anyway?

    My uncle a year ago June. He was bipolar.
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    Aug 10, 2012 10:21 AM GMT
    trainhard2011 saidWho were they to you, and why did they do it? Did it affect you in anyway?

    I've known several people who took their own lives. It is very sad they felt it was their only opportunity to find respite in their cold, hard, dark worlds.

    The only suicide that I feel really affected me was my grandfathers. I was in my early 20's and was a staunch opponent of suicide for any reason, no exceptions. Then my grandfather developed cancer and by the time it was discovered he had only days or weeks to live.

    He was in his late 60's, maybe 70's. As his wife explained it at the time (my grandmother passed away many years prior and Gramp's had been remarried for many years) all of his old friends were coming by to pay their last respects and my grandfather just couldn't take the pity that he felt he was being subject to. He knew he had only a few days remaining. He went into his bedroom, took the loaded shotgun off the wall and killed himself with it. Other than the horrid experience of having found him, his wife was not terribly distressed. She said, "he went out on his own terms."

    Upon reflection, I felt admiration and respect for my grandfather's decision. He did it in his own way, met the end of his life on his terms. He truly had nowhere else to turn; there were no options but to die a terribly painful death. I would never condone suicide, but I began with that experience to understand it better, I think.
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    Aug 10, 2012 10:51 AM GMT
    The_Dollarwine saidi had an old school mate who did it at a class reunion beach party, i don't know why. i was kinda jealous cause at the time i was going through a really rough spot and all i could think is he had the guts to do what i didn't

    Have you read Mrs Dalloway by Virginia something?
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    May 31, 2019 8:38 AM GMT
    My Dads sister ( Successful ) , My Moms Mother ( Succesful ) , , a man who was on my facebook friends list for years and I had never met him, I saw his suicide note on facebook , and got the police over.

    I have attempted it twice .. The first time was with pills, I had even taken a photo before I fell asleep. I woke a day and a half later , headache and filling like a failure.

    The second time, I lay in bed, I never moved, ate, drank, nothing, It started on a Tuesday, by the Thursday, I was so weak I had started to panic as not even my Landlord came in to check on me. I messaged the clinic and received no reply, I then sent a message to a guy who once told me i remind him of his brother who committed suicide and that If i needed help, I must just message him, send a location and he would make plan.

    He did , he found me laying on the bed, and asked me a few questions , when did you last eat, have you had anything to drink? He then disappeared and slowly fed me and gave me water. I fell asleep, but i think he stayed with me a little longer. I woke up every week about 2 days later, there were food and sports drinks, some coke and sweets on my table waiting for me. It felt like some weird dream.

    I had a lot of time to ponder, Firstly if i die, the person who finds my body will be scared for life. Its not fair to leave your cold corpse laying around so a random person is emotionally damaged because I was so far up my own ego that i never noticed anything or anyone around me,

    Next, who is going to clean up my smell corpse? You have no way of knowing who will find you and how long, so you could be doing some nasty damage to rugs as your stain gets all the carpets pulled out.

    So although I know it takes a load of balls to try and kill yourself .. it's NOT FAIR AT ALL , to the people who i would leave behind. Have a look in the comments above and see how many guys are scared for life from a friends suicide. Believe meits not a coward thing , it is complicated , unfathomable , and very dark