Howdy, Willie. I've posted here before and said the same thing, but it's worth repeating (at least it is to me!). The best advice I may have ever had was "Coming out isn't an event; it's a process." You are who you are. You'll get there, and you'll experience a lot of laughs and tears along the way.
I'm probably weird, but back in the day, I wasn't ready to "come out" before reading all about it. I found a book called Coming Out Right, which is probably long out of print, but it helped me. Today, you have the internet, and this site, despite it's name, is really supportive. Just realize that not every post (this one?) relates to you. Consider all advice, but take only the advice that seems right to *who you are*.
So here's a question for you: In your original post, you said you were attracted to guys, but "can't be happy with (your)self". Apart from the attraction to guys, are you happy with yourself? Why or why not? If it's JUST the attraction to guys that's keeping you from being happy with yourself, what do YOU think it would take to begin to be happy?
I've been 18, but you haven't been 40 (yet). It sounds like you already know this, and I'm here to validate it: It's important that you find out what makes you happy. That's a journey only you can take, and please note that I said "happy", not "what feels good." Good luck, and please know that we're all here for you.