Jun 30, 2008 1:32 PM GMT
I apologize for the length of this forum, but I REALLY would appreciate what you guys have to say in response to this. I'll make it as short as possible.
About a week or two ago, my dad asked me what I thought about everything that was going on with the new marriage laws, and I told him I didn't care, and that I had no opinion. He said I had to have an opinion as a Christian because I'm either for God or against God.
Yesterday (June 28th & 29th) ((our conversation lasted through the a.m.))
My dad was harassing me about some conversation we NEEDED to have. When I asked him what it was about, he said, "Life..and stuff." So, we talked and this is how it pretty much went.
We talked about school, church, rules of the house, marriage, my future, blah blah blah. Then, he picks up this folder and pulls out a paper I wrote in Psychology about a year ago about finding healthy sexual values. In the paper, I mention my bisexuality and homophobia and Christianity and all of that, and my dad goes on and on about how homosexuality is out of the order of God. He brought up all these scriptures about how homosexuality is wrong and an abomination and he really didn't understand what I was saying.
He said being gay is a choice and this was my argument. My dad REALLY loves homemade tacos (btw). I know that's random, but I used it in my argument.
"Homosexuality isn't a choice. That's like saying being black is a choice or being male is a choice. Why would someone willingly decided to be gay knowing everything they're going to go through? Your ACTIONS are your choice, but not the things you desire. You like tacos so much, but you can't just decide one day to not like them anymore. You can stop eating them, but you'll still like them. Can you just up and decide to not love Mom anymore?" And he said that he could.
I talked about how some doctors and psychologist and scientists have proved some things and how some things have yet to be proven, and he said, "Dr. Who? It hasn't been proven, and it never will. It's a demon spirit. Society and doctors try to come up with ways as to why homosexuality should be accepted." After that, I just gave up. He obviously doesn't get it, but he said he's going to be checking up on me about once a week now.
He prayed for me and had me pray, and in all honesty, a part of me just wants this to be over. I just wanna be happy. That's all. I can't even be myself around the people that claim to love me, and I dunno what else to do or who to talk to. So...here I am.
Sorry this was so long, but that's what happened, and I had to tell someone.
About a week or two ago, my dad asked me what I thought about everything that was going on with the new marriage laws, and I told him I didn't care, and that I had no opinion. He said I had to have an opinion as a Christian because I'm either for God or against God.
Yesterday (June 28th & 29th) ((our conversation lasted through the a.m.))
My dad was harassing me about some conversation we NEEDED to have. When I asked him what it was about, he said, "Life..and stuff." So, we talked and this is how it pretty much went.
We talked about school, church, rules of the house, marriage, my future, blah blah blah. Then, he picks up this folder and pulls out a paper I wrote in Psychology about a year ago about finding healthy sexual values. In the paper, I mention my bisexuality and homophobia and Christianity and all of that, and my dad goes on and on about how homosexuality is out of the order of God. He brought up all these scriptures about how homosexuality is wrong and an abomination and he really didn't understand what I was saying.

He said being gay is a choice and this was my argument. My dad REALLY loves homemade tacos (btw). I know that's random, but I used it in my argument.
"Homosexuality isn't a choice. That's like saying being black is a choice or being male is a choice. Why would someone willingly decided to be gay knowing everything they're going to go through? Your ACTIONS are your choice, but not the things you desire. You like tacos so much, but you can't just decide one day to not like them anymore. You can stop eating them, but you'll still like them. Can you just up and decide to not love Mom anymore?" And he said that he could.
I talked about how some doctors and psychologist and scientists have proved some things and how some things have yet to be proven, and he said, "Dr. Who? It hasn't been proven, and it never will. It's a demon spirit. Society and doctors try to come up with ways as to why homosexuality should be accepted." After that, I just gave up. He obviously doesn't get it, but he said he's going to be checking up on me about once a week now.
He prayed for me and had me pray, and in all honesty, a part of me just wants this to be over. I just wanna be happy. That's all. I can't even be myself around the people that claim to love me, and I dunno what else to do or who to talk to. So...here I am.
Sorry this was so long, but that's what happened, and I had to tell someone.
