HIV woke me up to the fact that sex can be immoral and damaging

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    tru_blu_auzzie saidOh how I recall the gay Plague Era, with great sickness and death all around me. How there where those who had to fight for the truth to get out, and how there were those who hid from it; the whole thing was to change me forever.

    I think because I back then so blindly stood by the gay community, even during a time when many did not; oh how simple and easy it is to fly the Rainbow Flag in countries like America and Down Under, and support AIDS Foundations, when so much of the hard work was done long ago..

    But what got me in the end was people going out of their way, with so much bitterness and contempt to take others with them, to pass on the HIV virus, noway where they going to deprive their dick. yes I even endured and survived a two year sexual relationship in the late 1980s with a guy who was HIV+. Oh I asked, and I talked about my experiences, but this did not make him be open and truthful about his own HIV status; how many did Don take with him? But He failed with me, and I am still HIV-, but I can not say it has not effected my life, to the end. I know people to this day who would not date a HIV+ dude, and how this must hurt many HIV+ guys, that they see themselves as unlovable., and immoral.


    Oh believe me, I know about the self pity crap, the lying crap, the manipulative crap. I CAN'T STAND IT! What I want is to be understood for who I am now compared to who I was back then and the hardest part is that HIV has become a damn rainbow banner like you talk about. It makes me want to scream out to the world... YOU ARE ALL FUCKING LOSERS! Don't you get it, YOU LOST! You allowed your concern for yourself to hit rock bottom and NOW look what you got? In my time I have left here on earth I want to make a fucking difference by reaching in and finding where that self-esteem had left them by breaking apart that ego and inflate it with a new philosophy, one that doesn't land people up where I am at.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:19 PM GMT
    Safe sex is amazing though.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:20 PM GMT
    Sex is bad.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:22 PM GMT
    Vitality said
    tru_blu_auzzie saidOh how I recall the gay Plague Era, with great sickness and death all around me. How there where those who had to fight for the truth to get out, and how there were those who hid from it; the whole thing was to change me forever.

    I think because I back then so blindly stood by the gay community, even during a time when many did not; oh how simple and easy it is to fly the Rainbow Flag in countries like America and Down Under, and support AIDS Foundations, when so much of the hard work was done long ago..

    But what got me in the end was people going out of their way, with so much bitterness and contempt to take others with them, to pass on the HIV virus, noway where they going to deprive their dick. yes I even endured and survived a two year sexual relationship in the late 1980s with a guy who was HIV+. Oh I asked, and I talked about my experiences, but this did not make him be open and truthful about his own HIV status; how many did Don take with him? But He failed with me, and I am still HIV-, but I can not say it has not effected my life, to the end. I know people to this day who would not date a HIV+ dude, and how this must hurt many HIV+ guys, that they see themselves as unlovable., and immoral.


    Oh believe me, I know about the self pity crap, the lying crap, the manipulative crap. I CAN'T STAND IT! What I want is to be understood for who I am now compared to who I was back then and the hardest part is that HIV has become a damn rainbow banner like you talk about. It makes me want to scream out to the world... YOU ARE ALL FUCKING LOSERS! Don't you get it, YOU LOST! You allowed your concern for yourself to hit rock bottom and NOW look what you got? In my time I have left here on earth I want to make a fucking difference by reaching in and finding where that self-esteem had left them by breaking apart that ego and inflate it with a new philosophy, one that doesn't land people up where I am at.


    YAAAAY!!! T_B_A and Stuart posting together!!!

    NOW all We need is a circus tent, a bearded lady and one of those guys yelling "step right up" into a megaphone and we could sell tickets!!!!
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:23 PM GMT
    Come on, man, you must be a sexphobic plant from the religious right. Sex is fun and invigorating, not something you should be ashamed of.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:23 PM GMT
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    YAAAAY!!! T_B_A and Stuart posting together!!!

    NOW all We need is a circus tent, a bearded lady and one of those guys yelling "step right up" into a megaphone and we could sell tickets!!!!


    I think Stuart needs to "turn" first, then it would be even funnier icon_lol.gif
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:24 PM GMT
    waccamatt saidCome on, man, you must be a sexphobic plant from the religious right. Sex is fun and invigorating, not something you should be ashamed of.


    Did you ever see the guy who spammed those creepy videos about the end of the world and how we are all going to be judged for our sins? That's the OP
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:30 PM GMT
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    Vitality said
    tru_blu_auzzie saidOh how I recall the gay Plague Era, with great sickness and death all around me. How there where those who had to fight for the truth to get out, and how there were those who hid from it; the whole thing was to change me forever.

    I think because I back then so blindly stood by the gay community, even during a time when many did not; oh how simple and easy it is to fly the Rainbow Flag in countries like America and Down Under, and support AIDS Foundations, when so much of the hard work was done long ago..

    But what got me in the end was people going out of their way, with so much bitterness and contempt to take others with them, to pass on the HIV virus, noway where they going to deprive their dick. yes I even endured and survived a two year sexual relationship in the late 1980s with a guy who was HIV+. Oh I asked, and I talked about my experiences, but this did not make him be open and truthful about his own HIV status; how many did Don take with him? But He failed with me, and I am still HIV-, but I can not say it has not effected my life, to the end. I know people to this day who would not date a HIV+ dude, and how this must hurt many HIV+ guys, that they see themselves as unlovable., and immoral.


    Oh believe me, I know about the self pity crap, the lying crap, the manipulative crap. I CAN'T STAND IT! What I want is to be understood for who I am now compared to who I was back then and the hardest part is that HIV has become a damn rainbow banner like you talk about. It makes me want to scream out to the world... YOU ARE ALL FUCKING LOSERS! Don't you get it, YOU LOST! You allowed your concern for yourself to hit rock bottom and NOW look what you got? In my time I have left here on earth I want to make a fucking difference by reaching in and finding where that self-esteem had left them by breaking apart that ego and inflate it with a new philosophy, one that doesn't land people up where I am at.


    YAAAAY!!! T_B_A and Stuart posting together!!!

    NOW all We need is a circus tent, a bearded lady and one of those guys yelling "step right up" into a megaphone and we could sell tickets!!!!


    Oh and an opportunity for cash to play dress ups.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:35 PM GMT
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    waccamatt saidCome on, man, you must be a sexphobic plant from the religious right. Sex is fun and invigorating, not something you should be ashamed of.


    Did you ever see the guy who spammed those creepy videos about the end of the world and how we are all going to be judged for our sins? That's the OP


    Ewww, he needs a good top to take that out of him. It won't be me, though, because I don't waste my time with negative people.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:35 PM GMT
    waccamatt saidCome on, man, you must be a sexphobic plant from the religious right. Sex is fun and invigorating, not something you should be ashamed of.


    No. I came from a family of very weak finances and very strong morals. I don't run around poking sticks at injured horses until I at least find out how they got sick first, but I also don't cry out like a sick horse when God gave me the opportunity to help others realize this is suppose to be a beautiful experience we have together here on earth. I have never been the one poking the stick until I realized sick horses poke at eachother.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:36 PM GMT
    waccamatt saidI don't waste my time with negative people.


    He's poz
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:38 PM GMT
    Firebrand said
    waccamatt saidI don't waste my time with negative people.


    He's poz


    I'll rephrase - people with negative attitudes. ;)
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:40 PM GMT
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    waccamatt saidCome on, man, you must be a sexphobic plant from the religious right. Sex is fun and invigorating, not something you should be ashamed of.


    Did you ever see the guy who spammed those creepy videos about the end of the world and how we are all going to be judged for our sins? That's the OP


    Ewww, he needs a good top to take that out of him. It won't be me, though, because I don't waste my time with negative people.


    They keep blaming some trolls actions on me because I had a stalker pretending to be me from surfermag.com's forums. I have never posted sick video's here and I am not one to masturbate and discuss it with a bunch of sick fucks unless they are concerned about it.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:44 PM GMT
    So, you are upset that some people have contracted HIV and managed to still go on with their lives... and you're got destroyed by it.



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    Aug 03, 2012 11:44 PM GMT
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    Take it from me, I have overcome stage 3 Testicular Cancer, Schizophrenia, AIDS/HIV, Emergency room Alcoholism behavior, and am now fighting Chronic Kidney Disease. I bet not one person on RealJock can hold a fucking candle to my health accomplishments. Case closed.


    ^ This paragraph makes you sound like a braggart or as if you were some warrior/survivor. I personally believe that disease is a result of imbalances which eventually impact physical health. You might have survived some serious illnesses and congratulations for not succumbing to these diseases. But if you think it makes you a stronger person I would suggest you reconsider. Surviving disease doesn't make you a hero. It only means you were fortunate enough to survive a less desirable income. And above all, disease is a sign that there are imbalances. So for those who don't have the imbalances and therefore do not succumb to disease, I personally view them as more equilibrated. At least to the point of not succumbing to disease.

    If you keep suffering illness after illness after illness then whatever is imbalanced remained unchanged. That's nothing to brag about. It simply means you're stuck in a perpetual cycle and I hope you one day rise above it.

    I think you have a long way to go given the title of this thread. You have a lot of guilt and judgment surrounding sexual behavior, as well as shame. Those lower emotions will keep you shackled up. Let go of the judgment and the need to punish other people for their views on sex. Let that go and focus on yourself.


    Two words into your first sentence and already judging my intentions. Sorry that is as far as I am going to read here. You can enjoy your rationalizations in that head but, my morals are not going to budge and nor are my diseases that have taught me my values. Take it or leave it, my soul is not for sale.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:45 PM GMT
    Vitality said...and I am not one to masturbate and discuss it with a bunch of sick fucks unless they are concerned about it.

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    Aug 03, 2012 11:47 PM GMT
    ^Does that mean you're taking your marbles and going home? Arrivederci!
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:47 PM GMT
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    Vitality said...and I am not one to masturbate and discuss it with a bunch of sick fucks unless they are concerned about it.

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    I think he is saying he jacked off to his reaper vids
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:48 PM GMT
    Adam228 saidSo, you are upset that some people have contracted HIV and managed to still go on with their lives... and you're got destroyed by it.





    Hmmm... That part comes from me here over time if I can first get all your personal attacks towards my first argument out of the way. I don't think that will be happening for the next two decades though. The community has built a wall around their behaviors and still hasn't accepted the fact that a man's looks are not all that he is about. Once the gay community stops comparing themselves to me, we can move on.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:56 PM GMT
    Vitality saidOnce the gay community stops comparing themselves to me, we can move on.


    Wait - who is comparing himself to you? Sorry, but it's impossible to be a selfless egomaniac.
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    Aug 03, 2012 11:58 PM GMT
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    I never knew the secret to correct condom usage was recognizing the difference between a sombrero and a baby bottle.
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    Aug 04, 2012 12:00 AM GMT
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    yourname2000 saidReally Stuart? Another profile? For this? icon_rolleyes.gif

    [sigh] I fear it's all starting all over again. icon_neutral.gif


    So what don't you like about the thread subject matter? Am I not entitled to an opinion on my OWN FUCKING DISEASE? Give me a break. You know there are a lot of people in the gay community who would like to just put a sponge in my mouth because they can't handle the truth.

    I am about Truth, if you can't handle it look away. Nobody and I mean NOBODY will steer me as to what I should believe when their philosophies are the only ones that almost killed me. I will fight back with logic this time... period. I am not like the rest around here.


    Truth isn't a proper noun. It should only be used with a capital t if at the beginning of a sentence. Thanks for your time. icon_smile.gif
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    Vitality said
    yourname2000 saidReally Stuart? Another profile? For this? icon_rolleyes.gif

    [sigh] I fear it's all starting all over again. icon_neutral.gif


    So what don't you like about the thread subject matter? Am I not entitled to an opinion on my OWN FUCKING DISEASE? Give me a break. You know there are a lot of people in the gay community who would like to just put a sponge in my mouth because they can't handle the truth.

    I am about Truth, if you can't handle it look away. Nobody and I mean NOBODY will steer me as to what I should believe when their philosophies are the only ones that almost killed me. I will fight back with logic this time... period. I am not like the rest around here.


    Truth isn't a proper noun. It should only be used with a capital t if at the beginning of a sentence. Thanks for your time. icon_smile.gif


    Read the infamous modern day philosopher Ernest Holmes and then get back to me about that. Good luck.

    Let the criticize games begin. I have better things to do for today. Enjoy.