Aug 24, 2008 6:23 PM GMT
So... how's the hangover?
ItsMyLife saidWow so I didn't even think I would get all these responses from a rant I had last night. Also on my profile I should reiterate it was kind of a joke I would just like to date someone who is an athlete and into sports the MMA is a Joke with my friends but I guess I didn't make that clear.
ItsMyLife saidI have been out of the closet for over two years now and I have spent the whole time trying to find my place. Everywhere I went I felt like I didn't really fit in anywhere that was for the gay community, the clubs, the bars, even the hollywood LGBT center had nothing to offer me even when I tried to do things with it I was the only person under 35, and I still was like an outcast looking in. I always look online and other places just for a place you know? It makes me feel like shit and makes what my parents say to me hurt even more when they say that you can't be gay because your not like any other gay man.... well after two years well I fucking feel that way! I mean I have meet one person who is a masculine gay guy who is really competitive in sports, and is like me.... One fucking guy! what the hell! And the first place I have ever felt like I truly fit in for the first time in my life and that I feel like I am with people who are like me is at my Mixed Martial Arts Gym but I no one knows I am gay there so its like I am not being my true self...... So yeah thats my fucking rant Fuck the gay community I have yet to see one person in the public eye I can relate to and more than one person I have met in my life! So I hate this and I hate who I am! Being gay has been nothing but a curse in my life
CuriousJockAZ saidBest advice I can give is to not wait for someone to come along and make you a part of the community, just go out there and become part of the community.
Alpha13 saidCuriousJockAZ saidBest advice I can give is to not wait for someone to come along and make you a part of the community, just go out there and become part of the community.
Or lacking a viable community to plug into make your own scene.
ItsMyLifethe clubs, the bars, even the hollywood LGBT center
ItsMyLife saidBut last night was a breaking point and had no alcohol involved either. lolWere you rejected by someone?
ItsMyLife saidAlso I know what my biggest problem is that I dont love myself I am working on all of that..... But last night was a breaking point and had no alcohol involved either. lol