Hello to everyone, and thanks a lot for reading my topic (My first topic ever) =)

I'm a 19 years old guy, who... Well... I want to workout to have a beautiful defined body, but... I'm shy and afraid to workout. I don't know so good how to do it, I want to do it by myself, obviously in a gym or fitness center or wherever icon_smile.gif but... I'm afraid. Afraid and shy.

I have like 8 months without going to the gym. I liked it a lot, and I lost a lot of weight (in fact, I'm not fat at this moment, I'm almost thin), but I feel like I don't belong to that fitness/gym world. Too much perfection, something I don't deserve (I think). But, in the other hand, (maybe it's contradictorial), I WANT to workout, to feel great and full of energy. To have a beautiful body to feel happy and proud of myself. icon_smile.gif

I did some soccer and I try to learned how to swim 4 years ago. I want to swim again too, but... I feel shame of showing off myself. It would make me cry. (For real, lol)

...I don't know what to do. I have nothing to inspire me to workout. I have the desire, but I don't have the motivation.

What can I do?

Take care, thanks again for reading my topic!

- Marshal.