Dec 05, 2012 5:12 AM GMT
So I already posted about this guy that i met 2 months ago. I had a really huge crush on him and we went out for a month before he told me that he just wanted to be friends. I respect his decision and back away and we remain friends. It's been almost a month now but I kept thinking about him, I don't know why i keep texting him, looking at his pictures and memories kept popping up. I miss him like 24/7 which is not healthy.It actually hurts so much to think about him and everytime I just want to be with someone so i can forget about him ( again, this is really bad and unfair for the other). I kept asking myself what I did wrong? though everyone told me that there is nothing wrong with me, i'm sure there is and I want to ask him that but i'm afraid it will bring me only pain and sorrow. Everytime i talk to him it made me feel that there is hope of him changing his mind ( though i don't think so). I've talked to my bestfriends and everyone told me to stop contacting him, delete his number ( I did but I have it ingrain in my brain), delete all messages from him etc... I think they gave up on telling me to do that cuz i failed everytime. To be honest, I just want to be friend with him but everytime i see him or in contact with him then i lost all my rational and I just want to be with him. I know what i should do and don't but i just can't do it, or just in denial. Sorry for the long post but i just wanted to get this out of my chest.