fitness_md saidMy problem is now this race feeling and nerves I've developed that I have to tell my family before the world does, but I'm not ready to yet!
I endorse coming out in principle, and at 32 I'm assuming you have a degree of independence from your family in case they disown you. And as you're reading here, that seems to be happening less often these days in the US.
At the same time, I think a guy should control the timing & circumstances to his best advantage. And it seems like you're reacting emotionally because of the disappointment over this other man.
That may be influencing your judgment, and also how you'll be handling yourself in presenting this to your family. If they disapprove will you be able to deal with it calmly and maturely? Will you be able to impress them with your happiness at coming out, if you project being upset to them?
It's a general adage that you should defer important decisions & actions during a time of emotional turmoil. Wait until you're back to normal, even though I know this is also the cause for your anxiety in wanting to tell them now. But that's the wrong reason, nor do I think they're going to find out any sooner, assuming they don't already suspect. (Are you unmarried at 32?)
Yes, do ultimately tell them, but you might wait a couple of months until your inner calm & composure return, don't stampede yourself. When you've rehearsed what you're going to say, and have thought about the best time & place. Having a plan may also give you courage & confidence. Right now it sounds like you're going to blurt it out as a guilty secret, like you robbed a bank or something, and that's the worst way to do it.